hey all MUST help me find hor

hey if u guys find a nokia 5610 colour red and black please return as it is my friend de and please pass this message around yuying if found, contact me @ 92290262 thanks!!! and its lost at school canteen de round table if u noe anyone who "stole" or found it or has any info on it please CONTACT ME!!!! thanks, JINGKAI

yea, back to postiing as usual, ytd night went to eat reunion dinner with family and yea eat eat eat n was also mum's birthday so sang a birthday song and i sang "qian li zhi wai" with my cousin, ruoling the retard hahaha yea den ate den all of a sudden thought of her again... haix ... she juz can't seem to get off my mind... i juz cant forget her ... T_T sad ... den reached home at ard 12am ... tired, fell asleep with her in mind and half-crying... today morning woke up at around 645am as i going to Changi General Hospital instead of skool for my scheduled appointment checkup, went there by taking 27, den at tampines changed to 10 to CGH at simei haha took X-Rays and found out LUCKILY, my legs de bones are still inact... phew ... yea den while waiting for consultation blah blah blah i almost cried out... cos whenever i hear the song "apologize" i will always think of her ... i juz cant forget her, and i smsed her ... she was still angry with me ... and is very angry ... T_T ... but since she dunwan forgive me i oso cant force her ... sobs... haix... den ar 1130am de whole appointment ended and i changed into uniform and quickly rushed to skool and reached skool at around 1pm =.= friends were all like saying "why dunwan come?" lols hahaha yea, den during fnn cooked shephard's pie and daniel cooked nasi briyani lols, both were nice hahaha den afterr skool i "delivered" daniel's nasi briyani to his house again lols, den came back hougang mall cut hair den went deposit some cash jiu came home le ... haha .... actually today kinda mooodless to post... cos i miss her badly... seriously...

i really hope u can give me another chance...
i really miss u even though i said i didn't...
please, baby come back...
i beg u ...
love u forever, little devil ...

yep, back to posting again =) yea ... hahaha today morning didn't feel well, stomach pain, ate wrong thing ytd night... de stupid oreo... zzz den dis morning very late den go school ... ha was late for school for like 2 hours ... went to let mdm amrit sign de form i went touring around de school haha walked to sec 1, den to sec 2 den to my class haha ... den sian lessons haha den after recess oso sian lessons den hmm after school waited for leeqin n doris n fenella to eat den we WENT TO GYM!!!! taking bus hahaha with cyrus and kelvin ha it was damn fun man and now im like aching all over? arghh... think tml go school will damn diffiicult to walk... zzz hahaha but i like traning myself like a siao kia haha den feel de aches all over me, yea, OMG now den i noe cyrus is freaking fit ok? walao he can do weights 1.5 times of wad i can do =.= yea and this guy demo-ed how we should do this particular thing, wa he was like having de "no kik" face wa, he dam fit la lols after gym went to hg mall buy drink and 2 bread hahaha den my precious meimei prank call me once =.= si retarded meimei den after dat de 2nd time she call i answered haha den she started to talk to me haha i like chatting with her =) she very cute xD den chatted quite long la den i watched some videos of drifting, wa my passion is to be in de D1 grand prix lor!!!! how i hope can be like them =) maybe, one day haha and something happened dat kinda spoiled my mood, somebody smsed me and told me dat she was pangseh-ed by her friends and wan me to pei her... and only she needed me den sms me, when no need me juz push me aside and dao me... den i replied, when u need me u sms me, where were u when i needed u? i guess by now u guys noe who im referring to liao la huh? zzz .... sian-ed and to think dat i actually cried for her, did so much things dat she didn't noe to make her happy, wasted so much money, kana caning, 2nd number get confiscated... haix.... it was all so not worth... and what she did to repay me, left me all alone all of a sudden... i losst many friends cos of her too... cos she didn't like me talking to girls... haix... how i wish i can go back in time and never knew her ... T.T ... soooooo sad la ... hope my meimei will cheer me up ... sshe is de only one dat can make me smile when im down, so, my meimei is important to me ...

Labels: im afraid... save me...

walao i dunno he use psychic or wad la he siao de lol haha den, waited for cab wif zul and salamun brought zul back to his hse ... den after dat, hweemin went guitar, me & guowei went to bball court, we did some chin-ups den climbed de obstacle wall to talk crap there lols den played bball for quite awhile den took bus back with elisa n lynn(YANYAN) hahaha den there onwards i slacked at home from ard 5pm to now, and oso going to tuition, SIAN!!! zzz dunno will see hu lols haha blog again tomorrow ba =) takecares!!!

tomorrow, school starts again ... sian, lim geok choo de chemistry =.= den still got chinese =.= OMFG man ... sian ... hope tml can see ****** hahaha dat 1 not much ppl noe la lols, i oso dunwan ppl to know haha hope dat person dunno oso cos i scared dat person avoid me T_T haha played hs5 wif cianyuh meimei today haha and she called me juz now when doing work, cos i too sian liao so sms her call me and chat chat lor ... and she asked me wan go escape on forget wad date liao haha i dunwan go cos of SOMEBODY ha ... and i think dey oso dunwan me to go la, so go for wad? lols haha tomorrow morning play SOCCER!!! hope to score again !!! =) haha so, blog tomorrow again ba =) takecare all!!! bye !!!

im now really messed up, i admit, i still cant forget u ...
ever since dat day u left me, i dunno why, ur voice, ur text msgs will appear in my mind
its like, i need u ... but i dunno whether its i like u, or what...
u were afraid i might leave u with fucked up feelings, but then, it was u who left me with
FUCKED UP FEELINGS!!! ...

Labels: im confused... angel, or ******?

im de one using explosion hahaha my name firzen lols ... seriously i feel i damn lame .. zzz sian ... anyways got ppl noe i like her even though i din tell anyone ... zzz shit man ... hope dat person dun spread hahaha lols see how l8r zai blog ba =) byebye :D

Labels: Boring day

Read this from friendster
Title:28 things most girls dont know

--Guys hate sluts even though
theyhave sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

what the fuck???? knn ... i really hate my family!!!!!!!!! A FUCKED UP FAMILY!!!!!! juz using a prepaid card, top up only got problem ar? knn ... like dat oso wan take all my freedom away, beat me and all shit, eh hello! i 15 yrs old liao leh!!! knn ... i seriously fucked up liao ... knn ... aand because of this fuck u took all my freedom away, confiscate my psp, ipod, what the fuck u think u are?

im really not as strong as i look...

yawns~ sian... actually dunwan blog de .. kinda lazy ... haha but i wan cheerup my supertwin =) hope she'll come read lols haha. so anyways, today early in the morning 4am, i suddenly woke up and said "shit hp no batt l8r go skool how" den i started charging my phone, den after awhile, i found out dat today is saturday =.=!!! die sia ... too stress liao ... arghh den my stupidd kick ass mum still call me do house chores... zzz ... but b4 i started, my meimei called me ... she call me pei her chat, den ok lor ... den she call me play hs5 wif her but i dunwan den she joked and said "i dun like u la" den i oso joked back de same thiing, but i didn't noe dat she actually took it seriously and den she cried ... omg ... meimei if i sounded too serious im sorry >< ... den did house chores, de kickass woman came back and started scolding me say i anyhow do hse chores ... wtf .. i did until like so tired la ... den she said, if u do the thing until so pek chek u might as well dun do la !! den i was like, did i say i wanna help u do all this shit? i was forced to do it k? den if i said dat, she will complain wad she work until so tired nobody do hse chores blah blah blah, she say until she very wei da jiu correct le la ... aiya she sucks la ... anyways, l8r going civic fd club de meetup hahaha for de 1st time im going!!! yay!!! its at kallang leisure park carpark G so if anyone walk pass there and see ALOT of honda civics, im there =) can come find me oso hahaha lols wahahaha soooooooooooooooooooo excited la!!!!!!!!! =) alright den, will post pics next post, i hope =)

wahahahahahaha today is a boring day =.=
morning went skool as per usual but the sad thing is she pon skool =.= den cant see her ...
haha den morning cme, cme SUCKS okay... useless and must see de "pigman" u wanna noe why she is pigman? cos her face look like pig(serious) and her body like man(im serious) dun askk me why ... haha den recess me kelvin and L sai talk bout something serious, cant tell u guys hahahha cos its really serious... den maths lesson learn vector, quite easy la haha den english lesson make miss lee angry OMG haha den after skool got the stupid chinese lesson ((extra de )) useless can? zzz waste our time and make me lose my chance of going 2 find her ... knn screw chinese la!!!!! chinese and cme sucks!!!!! blehs... sian sian sian ... really nothing to blog about today....
oh ya!
after skool went to eat long john wif Lshit, fenella, doris and jun yi eat eat eat den laugh laugh laugh den come back home =.= hahaha leeqin likes to ""an wei" herself hahaha lols nothing to blog about liao ... k den seeya guys!!!

hellooooooooo~ im back posting ~ haha another sian day... yawns~ recess play soccer, I SCORED!!!!! woohoooo~~!!!! beautiful cross from kelvin and, ITS A HEADER FROM JINGKAI!!!! HE SCORES!!! yea man~ thanks to kelvin~~ oh yea~ hahaha den after recess went pass somebody de class see somebody haha i admit la i go see chio bu xD dun blame me, its normal for a 15 gg on 16 guy to see chio bu but i only focus on target:1 only hor, no flirt flirt hahaha den maths lesson very nice, learn matrice, i love maths, maths rocks!!! haha den fnn go com lab fine tune de task analysis den after fnn we went to hall see our seniors get results ... wa see soo many ppl cry and wa i now den noe my seniors all soooooooooo chio sia~~ wa lols, den after all de crap talk we went playing SOCCER!!! SOCCER ROCKS!!!! hahaha den de match starts, i throw in, kelvin heads and, HE SCORES!!!!! sweee la ~~ wa recess he pass me header score after school i pass him score, wa we two too pro liao la hahaha lols bhb den after dat me kelvin vinoth sasi and another guy(i dunno his name) took 62 went home vinoth and dat boy went down 1st den me kelvin sasi got down near hg(hong gan)mall haha its hougang mall la hahaha den kelvin bought otah, me bought nothing den jiu go home and rotted all de way~~ haha see u guys tml~!!!! hahaha and wa SHE(de somebody mentioned) is really damn chio :D
dat doesn't mean anything ar~ dun think too much and i think she oso dunwan her name to appear here so friends, dun do anything stupid if u noe wad i mean :D

my supertwin!!!! sorry for disturbing u ... but dun sad or emo liao k? smile smile =) ur ssupertwin will always be here supporting u :D smile!!!!

i've decided ... i wanna give up on her liao ... live as freely as possible, burn everything into dust...
wenjia is right, na de qi, fang de xia ... so, bye, my "love" BYE!!!!!!!! go as far as possible and dun come back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

walked home from skool today... needed a break from earth and daily life ... walked walked walked and thought of some things... of course i thought of her ... i miss her ALOT... seriously .... and she finally smsed me today ... but, good things dun last long ... so, she not smsing me liao T_T haix... while walking, i felt damn emo... how i hope she can be with me walking down the path of life ... but i know, thats not possible anymore... actually thought of buying something for her... but since she dunwan i oso wun force her to keep den i oso nvr buy ... zzz... i really miss her alot... hope can see her soon... zzz...

today, went skool early in the morning(yawns) hahaha den normal lessons lor, so damn boring... lalala den maths is like so damn fun la!!! learn multiplication of matrices, wa i so interested in mathhs now la lols, mr chia so funny lor and b4 mr chia started lesson, i invited sam to the front and called everyone to sing a birthday song to him while i passed him a gift by leeqin, fenella and me hahaha its a skull necklace, wow nice~~ haha den he is so happy(i hope he is) den during fnn kelvin keep throwing eraser at trisha lols, den trisha take water splash at kelvin and oso kana me =.= I SO INNOCENT CAN??? zzz ... den fnn test wa i dunno a shit lols hahaha den recess so many people, sian haha ... after dat de poa lesson de stupid mdm low come in late and still dare always say "i cannot tolerate latecomers" when u are one urself den kpkb us ... pooa is sooooooooooo damn boring la ... den english went to ccomp lab to play some text twist game but i went to her blog, mine and civic fd club instead hahaha so fun lor lols hahaha den assembly~ i forgot wad i was doing haha too boring liao, no choice ... den jiu walked home(de-stress) haha den now leg de muscle hurting arghhT_T

how i hope u were there for me when i needed u most
how i hope u could give me another chance
how i hope ii nvr knew u ... T_T

URGHH!!! i cant believe im crying myself to sleep dis few nights ... juz came back from gym and feel like a disabled... its been quite a while since i started training myself ... but i feel good after training, cos sweat a lot!!! hahaha den i ran for around 2km ard 11-12 mins =) chiong ar chiong... wa my upper body seriously dammn weak la =.= ard 70-80kg jiu buay tong liao =.= hahaha but i will train till fit de =) anyways, today, i started living without her ... its seriously damn difficult, friends were like asking, "eh how u and her liao?" or "eh u and her no more ar?" haix... actually i cried at class today... luckily nobody saw =) seriously, i wanna die... den during english, most of my friends were like keep saying bout her, i juz cant stand it and started to emo... haix.... i keep thinking of her ... every minute, i guess... so damn sad la... ha ... but i try my best cos i promised some of my friends le, to forget abt it ... but i guess its difficult ... zzz... i seriously miss her alot... den, after skool all of a sudden she called me and said, "hey i cant sms le so, ya ... bye" actually, i noe is she dunwan sms me, not cannot sms me ... since she dunwan sms me jiu dun sms lor ... haix... my cut is getting more obvious ... maybe will post the pics at friendster private photo, wan see??? ask me !!! hahaha k den, see u guys... bye!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! I WANNA DIE!!!!!!!!!! firstly kpkb me for nth, ytd nite kp at me for CHARGING HP got any problem wif dat? knn den now kp me again, dunno for wad ... fuck u man!!! go call wei hong wei yang be ur son la bitch!!!! knn i oso dunwan be ur son liao la... even my aunt noes dat u are spoilt, even she oso say u anyhow shout shout shout... everytime say"i talk to u nicely u liddat shout at me" eh, fuck off man... i will not shout at anyone only if they de zui me or shouted at me 1st ... bitch...


fuck man, i really need a break ... 1stly, it was HER problem den, 3 simultaneous fucked up mum de problem, i wonder wads next ... zzz ... i wanna die ... die ... DIE!!!! knn... seriously... too much things happened all of a sudden... so friends, if u see me crying in skool, dun be shocked... cos i may go crazy ... im serious...

i've decided... since u can go on with life normally even without me, then i shall not bug on to u anymore... sorry for troubling u all this while ... sorry for hurting u, sorry for every single shit i've done wrong ... sorry... take care ... this will be the last time im saying it ... take real good care of urself ... dun cry so easily ... =) take care ...






today early in the morning, i woke up at 6am, when skool starts only at 9am... i was smsing her all the time ... but there was no reply... i was so sad, that i cant believe that i actually cried in the bus ... hope nobody saw that ... i was so damn freaking sad ... after i reached skool, i was trying to find something to do to keep myself from crying again, so, went to the street soccer court n saw kelvin and guys, played soccer for quite a while and most of them said that i've improved =) hoped so... after that was frc and blah blah blah den after recess and reading was PE ... my fav subject =) mr lawrence took height and weight ... and my height was 176cm ... weight was 89kg =.= shit man must go slim down liao ... 3 months l8r i shall update u guys on my weight :D den during chinese, de china bitches reprimanded us on crap and was like soooo irritating? i hate chinese!!!!! and den after skool went to guitar room to play guitar =) played qing tian ... and was trying to learn cai hong ... but soooooo difficult la ... but 1 day i'll surely master both qing tian and cai hong :D den ard 3pm came out take bus, kns ... wait till 3.40+ bus then come ... kns~~ den came home den jiu rot ... hahaha cya guys tml!~~~!

hope u can forgive me ... my baby angel ...

u are ALWAYS my baby angel ...

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you !

sorry ... i didn't noe about what happened ... until u posted on ur blog ... sorry... real sorry... hope dat we are still friends =) yea ... u said u dun wanna be in love anymore, so, i also cant force u to be wif me ... so... i'll juz be ur good friend for now ... and hope after u cool down, we can start afresh ... but if u dunwan, i also cant do a shit, all i noe now is, im stuck to u ... totally stuck ... i juz cant forget u ... u are always appearing in my mind, im always worrying bout u ... dat only mean 1 thing, i still love u ... i sure do ...

SINCE U WAN ME TO FUCK OFF FROM UR LIFE THEN,

FINE!

I SHALL JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE AND LEAVE U ALONE!
dun come and find me anymore!
i dun think u will, cos u are hating me to the core now...
yea...

i will still be there if u really need me ...
even though i wrote like i am very angry, actually everybody noes i need u ... T_T!!!

totally fucked up... knn... NG RONG JIAN OR ANY OTHER RELATIVES/COUSINS READING THIS, PLEASE GO TELL MY FUCKED UP MOTHER GO FUCK HERSELF UNTIL SHE DIE

knn!!! today spring cleaning u call me help u, ok, i help u, den u not happy den jiu shout at me scold me, u so pro u do urself la!!! jibai!! u like weihong & weiyang so much go call them be ur son la!!!! since they liten to their parentss sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much like a DOG ... den i say who who good u say call them be my parents, kpkb me then u everytime say weihong weiyang sooooo guai i call u go take dem as ur son u jiu kao pei kao bu ... knn fuck off my life la!!!!! i hope my 2 parents die as early as they can la!!!!!!!! jibai... im ur son, not ur maid/dog!!!! FUCK!

im already fucked up enough wif my life!!!! knn... really feel like dying ...

haix... even though i sounded like i hate her, she still cant be replaced by anyone in my heart ='(

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

That it's too late to apologize
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize
It's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like an angel
Heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize
It's too late

Whoaa ohhh...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet... off the ground...

this song is dedicated to her... the one and only baby angel in my heart...

life without u is just ... fucked up ...
normally, u were always there, to cheer me up.
but today, u weren't there anymore...
i just cant get used to it ...
i shouted at my parents, stared at everyone outside like they owed me something...
banged into anyone dat stands in my way ...
i also dunno why im doing this...
even though im not hungry, i still went to eat wif my parents, and now im having a bad stomachache ...
but even though im writing all this, i noe u will never come back ...

just like the song said, u tell me dat u nid me and then u cut me down ...

this would really be the turning point of my life ...
i would really not wanna jio any girls le ...
dat was wad i always did and land myself in hot soup...
and this time, it landed me in deep shit, real deep shit ...
i miss u ... haix... u must take real good care of urself, dun cry so easily =)

GREAT! now, everyone is fucked up wif me!!! i might as well go to hell!!! im really damn sad and seriously moodless and really dunno wad 2 do ... she is gone, so are my friends... im really all alone now ... ALL ALONE... cianyuh is right... if she really loved me, she would have trusted me... and if i had listened to cian, all this shit wouldn't have happened... now, she has already admitted she didn't liked me in de 1st place, i really regretted all those shits i've done... fuck man! i would really die...

feel like deleting my blog liao, dun feel like blogging anymore, im happy!!! cos i'll be in hell/heaven in another like 5 minutes time? haha some people just wants me to die so badly, maybe today will be the day i grant them ... or not??

to, somebody
don't say u love me if u don't cos i'll do something stupid like, believe it
u think i really wanna leave u?
since u said it liao, u didn't like me before, i guess my time is up
and if u think im a flirt i tell u again, and this'll be de last time,
IM NOT A HONGSTER OR A FLIRT get it?
actually i also dun care whether u trust me or not liao,
or not?

hellos~~~ back to posting my everyday life, someone wants to noe =)
ok, today, went to skool, lessons were as per normal, boring and mr chia tot us matrices(CHIM)
dun understand =.= and i gave attitude during stupid cme lesson... de teacher still say me give black face ... IS UR LESSON TOO BORING LA!!!! CME oso no 'o' lvls so important meh? zzz... so sian lor den after dat recess played a little soccer den i wanna "sei"(throw ball damn hard) at andy de den how i noe he juz nice siam den hit a sec 2 or sec 3( i dunno) de gal ... OMG so paiseh la she still diao me O.O wa ah lian sia hahaha ... lols den after skool went home watch naruto hahaha so nice la den after dat went back skool again see LQsis dey all de guitar club, OMG WEN AN IS SOOOOOOO FREAKING TALENTED CAN? wa no wonder LQ an lian him hahaha(jkjk)
he play cai hong and qing tian de chords(i dunno de) =.= he so pro la ... basketball oso pro, guitar oso pro, still noe how 2 b-box and rap ... wa if he not shy he oredi freaking famous now lor ... den after dat we went to heartland to pei LQ dey all eat(i din eat) den almost late for parent teacher conference la( my parents no come :DDDDD) den went in played psp listened song and read my fav car mag:hot stuff for 2 hours liddat den me kelvin dey all go mac eat den i came home haha dats my day baby!!! haha

baby i love you!
i hope dat u meant wad u said ...
and i trust u, hope we can be together =)
LOVE U !!! =) muacks!!!

am i juz a sudden attention to u? or am i really important to u? if i ever gave up on u, would u really give a fuck about it? u said u were serious, do u really mean it? or its just to entertain me? do u really nid me? or u juz entertaining me when u have otther GUY friends? i talked lesser to girl FRIENDS evr since u told me u were jealous if i talked to girls, and u always say things about ur GUY friends in my face, u think i wun jealous?? everytime i call u and hear u smsing and u tell me its to a guy, u noe how it hurts? its like a hundred knives cutting, not my wrist, but my heart!!!! i juz wanna clear my doubts about u ... i trusted u, as i loved u. and as somebody said, if u really loved me, u would have trusted me. i cant possibly give in to u forever, have u ever thought of me? ever thought of how i felt? ever knew wad it is like to get replys from a girl i love to be "orh.", "ok" , "no", u noe how it feels? i noe u had historys of how u feel i noe how u feel, cos im also de same victim as u!!!! i was wad once u were!!!! getting throwed around!!! haix, i sometimes really juz feel like giving up, juz over some small things, u will say "then give me up lo" uu noe wad diis makes me feel? make me feel dat im TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT!!! haix... i cant believe im crying while typing all this crap ...

moodless, heartbroken

am i juz a sudden attention to u? or am i really important to u? if i ever gave up on u, would u really give a fuck about it? u said u were serious, do u really mean it? or its just to entertain me? do u really nid me? or u juz entertaining me when u have otther GUY friends? i talked lesser to girl FRIENDS evr since u told me u were jealous if i talked to girls, and u always say things about ur GUY friends in my face, u think i wun jealous?? everytime i call u and hear u smsing and u tell me its to a guy, u noe how it hurts? its like a hundred knives cutting, not my wrist, but my heart!!!! i juz wanna clear my doubts about u ... i trusted u, as i loved u. and as somebody said, if u really loved me, u would have trusted me. i cant possibly give in to u forever, have u ever thought of me? ever thought of how i felt? ever knew wad it is like to get replys from a girl i love to be "orh.", "ok" , "no", u noe how it feels? i noe u had historys of how u feel i noe how u feel, cos im also de same victim as u!!!! i was wad once u were!!!! getting throwed around!!! haix, i sometimes really juz feel like giving up, juz over some small things, u will say "then give me up lo" uu noe wad diis makes me feel? make me feel dat im TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT!!! haix... i cant believe im crying while typing all this crap ...

moodless, heartbroken

haix, i think de inner devil in me is acting up again ... it always makes me dunno wad to do ...

baby, why so cold? haix... if u wan go sleep or wad or u tired juz tell me... dun hide it ... k?
u nid wad u want wad juz tell me k?? promise me u wun hide ur feelings of sad or wad ...
please ... let me enter ur life k? please... i really love u leh ... i noe u love me ... haha
believe it? i was like jumping up and down for joy when u said "i love love love you too!" and
"Hees. Play only la! Love you toos (:" im like damn happy when u do dat !!!! but i dunno why i feel an emptiness in me ...
hope u can fill up de hole for me!!!!, WAIT, u MUST fill up de hole for me!!!!!! :D

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ninety-nine "ILOVEYOU"s hope dat we can chang chang jiu jiu ... and hope u can faster leave "him" and come to me =) i love you!

baby!!! i love u!!!! please please please!!!! i LOVE U!!!
bleah~~!!!

send me ur pic!!!!! juz 1 please? T_T

FUCK!!!!!!!! im dying!!!!!!!!!! i wanna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wanna cry!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!
i cant believe it, my fucking mood is seriously turning my whole fucking world upside down ...
1st, i gave fucking attitudes to my friends, brothers and all fucking people around me ...
and den, i dunno wad 2 do by juz finding faults in my friends ... my good brothers and im afraid i might go crazy...
i dunno why dis is happening to me, i wanna say sorry ...
to: daniel ... iim really sorry ... i ddunno wads happening to me ...

this post is meant for my baby angel... if u are not my baby angel, DON'T READ!!!!

baby, wad u wan me to do den u will trust me?
i said i love u!!!! i really do!!!! but u said dat i didn't like u...
ya i dun like u, cos i LOVE u!!!!! please, i oredi talk to girls(friends) lesser and lesser liao
im serious about dis my baby, please please please trust me can?
cos i really love u ... i really do ... T_T my wrist is bleeding now ... its so damn pain ... and im like totallyy left alone .... how i hope u can care for me ... i didn't cut myself, as i promised, but i accidentally scratched de wound against de table and ... it bleeded ...
sighs... if u didn't dao me today, since 3.16pm u told me dun sms u, i've been sending u smses dat u didn't wanna reply, or see i dunno... den all of a sudden i turned and i scratched my wound there .... PLEASE my baby i really really do love u ... trust me, juz trust me ... please ... i love you ...

please dun call me to fuck off, i'll die ... i seriously will, dere is already two cuts on my wrist ... but u din like me to cut myself so i said to myself, if im gonna cut myself again, which u dun like, i will cut myself real hard... and dat will be de day, when u leave me ...

haix...
sometimes, i really dunno wad u really want...
u sometimes juz dun reply me without telling me wad happened...
sometimes all of a sudden telling me to FUCK OFF...
please... dun liddat anymore can? promise me ...
im really damn sad whenever u tell me to FUCK OFF, tell me DUN SMS U ANYMORE
i juz wan both of us being together ...
i admit i get jealous damn easy but, i really juz cant control it, im sorry ...
i dunno whether u will read dis anot ... but dis post is for u ...
juz hope dat i can love u without worrying about anything...
cos i really love u... please i nid u to trust me ... please, i love u ...

hello all =) im back blogging wif my baby angel in my mind and im 100% sure she'll be reading dis hahaha am i right? bleah! hahaha life has been colourful ever since she entered my life, she IS my everything... i really love her and i hope she oso loves me too =) love ya my baby!!! anyways, today got cca experience day... we did de "demo" when sec 1 classes walked pass ... wa damn stress man ... fuck man, even though i can play without my knee guard, my leg still will hurt and im like fucking lousy now ... T_T damn sad la!!!!!!!!!!!!! knn... my 3 yrs of striving go down drain liao ... and now almost my whole body aching... zzz ... how i hope dere is someone dat can care for me ... i hope ... hope ... hope ... and i dunno why but lately in class keep thinking bout her and even daydreaming... today was kind of my worst days ever? morning she reply me very cold den i really damn sad, tot she angr wif me or wad den got ppl accidentaly hit me i diao him all de way until he alight ... den during physics lesson evenn jason dey all call me i answer like very fucked up liddat ... i even shouted at jun yi ... sorry guys! haix... i really hope dat "we" can really love each other without worries but she is like ... haix ... dunno wad to say ... but i really really really really love her!!!!!!!! haix ...


send me ur pic la baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BLEAH BLEAH BLEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

hi guys~~ i love my baby angel =) byebye






sometimes, i dunno u rally love me or not ...
sometimes, i juz feel like giving up ...
sometimes, i juz wanna die for u ...
sometimes, i juz feel like committing suicide ...
so, please, dun leave me alone!!!!

hello everyone, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ADD ME @ NEW ACC jingkai_mugenpower@hotmail.com

bored bored bored bored bored ... zzz sian~~!!!! nothing to blog about, i only noe skool is bboring and im getting focused on studies which is like great =) haha
hope i can keep it up through out de yr hahaha alright time to sleep =) bye!