Life is pain, pleasure is death.
-Miyavi

Girl, i want to tell you, i love you and i miss you, but, i know, you still love him and you still miss him.



Calm envy
降りしきる雨の音に　　沈みそうな
その約束は誰の夢で　誰の為の夢だろう

「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
どうかしてるね

繋ぐ手と逆のてには　いつも知らない香りがしてる
「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
息はちゃんと出来てるのに　崩れそうになる

言葉よりも深く　愛してくれるなら
目の前に居るあなただけを　信じていける
不意に見せた過去に　触れる度に脆く
埋め尽くせない空白に　涙浮かべ

安らぎに甘えてても隣の あなたが私の中から 途切れそうになる

「I want to see all of you.」 「I want to love all of you.」
答えは笑みに溺れ
「You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost.」
掻き消せない程　抱えてる

あなたに投げた言葉も　愛してくれるなら
目の前に居るあなただけを　信じていける
不意に見せた過去に　触れる度に痛む　いたむ
私のいない空白まで　愛したい
気付かれないように　涙は拭うから
この以上私の前で　笑わないで

「さよなら」 を隠す二人じゃなく
「さよなら」 に泣く二人でいたい
思い返すより忘れて欲しい
そして私を空白に置いて
もう過ぎた日々を追ったりしないで

もうこれ以上置いて行かないで
「せめて・・・」
さよならを握り眠る私の
仄かな熱を煙草のように消して

帰らない日々を　愛した人よ

I seem to sink into the sound of the falling rain.
This promise is whose dream, who is this dream for?

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
It's this way, isn't it?

When our hands are clutched together,
There is this unknown scent coming from the opposite one.
Although I can breathe normally, I seem to crumble eventually.
If you could love me deeper than just those words
I could believe only you standing before me.
In the suddenly showing past, the times we would touch,
Could not fill the fragile emptiness, floating on those tears.

Although I find comfort in this peace,
You, who are beside me, are breaking from my inside.

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
The answer is drowning in a smile.
You don't love the everyday shadow, when it was lost.
We carry those bounds that I can't let disappear.

Even though I threw those words at you, if you could love me
I could believe only you, standing before me.
The suddenly shown past, hurts every time you touch me
I want to love you to my inner emptiness.
Because I won't let you notice how I wipe my tears
There is nothing else to laugh about in front of me.

It's not the two of us, concealing this means the [good bye]
How I wish it to be us together crying at this [farewell]
More than thinking back about it, I would like you to forget
And put me in this empty space.
Don't chase those long passed days.

Don't leave anything more than what's already left.
[At least…]
I hold onto this good bye, as I fall asleep
And the faint heat vanishes like tobacco.

The days that won't return, the person I loved