Friday, July 31, 2009
Today was kinda bored, go school do CPA, so stressed, after school went to eat at KFC with Abdullah, Andy, Aaron, Farhan & Fajar, haha ate quite alot :X *guilty* after that jiu came back home rest :D anyways, Abdullah passed my my [DIM] album *iz happy* but was pissed by something else, oh well~ thats life~ here is the album art and track list.
- 「剥離」 Hakuri - 1:43
- THE INVISIBLE WALL - 4:35
- A MOTH UNDER THE SKIN - 2:57
- LEECH - 4:15
- 泣ヶ原 Nakigahara - 7:19
- 「エ リ カ」 Erika - 0:53
- HEADACHE MAN - 3:54
- 紅蓮 Guren - 5:40
- 「子宮」 Shikyuu - 0:43
- 13STAIRS[-]1 - 5:02
- DISTRESS AND COMA - 5:20
- 「感触」 Kanshoku - 0:52
- 白き優鬱 Shiroki Yuutsu - 4:29
- IN THE MIDDLE OF CHAOS - 3:02
- 「朦朧」 Mourou - 0:23
- OGRE - 3:14
- DIM SCENE - 5:12
8:56 PM
At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping
it all over his lap.
When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him
by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to
football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by
jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to
the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch
certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.
When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion.
You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.
When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him
by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deeply he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You
thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on your heart.
it all over his lap.
When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him
by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to
football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by
jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to
the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch
certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.
When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion.
You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.
When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him
by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deeply he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You
thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on your heart.
"Treasure everything you have, don't act like a spoilt child, you're not a young kid anymore, act like an adult, because you are one year away from becoming one" - my cousin said that to me
4:22 PM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Feel, the power of the GazettE
and why im so obsessed with them
My aim, to be like them.
8:46 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Today, 25th July 2009 i got my very first electric guitar from Davis Guitar @ peninsula plaza :D pics? wait wait wait, will upload... soon
10:11 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009
I dragged myself to school today, and im at school blogging now, with metal band's bass in my head, people who have headaches should know what i mean, i guess after lunch im going home, no matter whoever believes me or not.
8:47 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
wahahaha, im sick, as promised, not faking it, but really sick (: and 2 days off school just like that! but im really having a bad headache, comes and goes, sore throat, cough and flu, tingting lagi best, fever, 1 week "holiday" LOL! anyways, tomorrow can enjoy solar eclipse muahahahaha, and its a day closer to my dream, yay 8D shiok shiok, but i feel like puking =.= sian, thurs and fri must go back face the teachers again zzzzzzzzzzzz, btw, now i understand why the public says ITE stands for "Its The End" its not the students, its some other factors :X obvious right? i dowanna continue, later Mr Loh see liao go spread, i die, LOL!
7:30 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Okay, the stop school mindset is coming into my brain again, i feel like stopping school, again, i thought after leaving secondary school, everything will be new, but in thee end, its still the ssame, school life still sucks, not because of friends, so friends, don't worry, but its just me, my laziness is making me don't feel like going to school, making me hate school, the teachers, not you Mr Loh, some other teacher(s), their voice, their decisions, their amount of stress, their irresponsbility, pisses me off, i don't care if that teacher sees this or what, i don't give a damn, that teacher is actually a nice person, but when it comes to studies, it seems like his/her subject is the most important thing on earth, no matter if you are not feeling well or what, which reminds me, teachers, whats the point of asking a student questions when you don't even trust the student? For example, i tell a teacher im not feeling well, the teacher asks "sure anot?" with the suspicious look, you might as well just don't ask, and ignore the poor student, right? Seriously, i can't keep up with this kind of life, the pace is too... damned.
I really thought before, of becoming a monk for a couple of years or so, this kind of life is seriously too complicated for me, too damned, as i said. I have not even touched my projects, too lazy to do so, im not the kind that'll do office stuff, im more of a hands-on guy, and im not even sure am i even regretting taking up this course, should've went to NS while re-taking O's, which'll save loads of time, instead of wasting time in this school im starting to hate, no offence to anyone in this school, but really, this school is starting to piss me off, maybe i should get sick soon, real soon, like, tomorrow?
And blogger finally decides to stop being a bastard, thanks. My dream above, coming true soon.
8:59 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
im fucking tired, i guess im gonna go sleep soon, btw, QA has a suspected H1N1 case, and farhan has fever of 39 degrees for 3 days and is not recovering, and alvin has a fever of 38 degrees and im feeling feverish, nnbpcb, scary
8:25 PM
Monday, July 13, 2009
Going to sleep soon, so i'll just do a short post, im getting sick of life, i hate it, i hate my home, nobody knows how worse the condition is here, it just sucks, makes me feel sick and pisses me off, how i hope i have an electric guitar right now, but before that, return sochii korkor money >< 200 dollars ah dey!
9:08 PM
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Back blogging (: today left school early, for my contract signing, felt good, cos i didn't wanted to stay at school any longer also, abit pissed, but lucky not more pissed, yeah, signed the contract at hougang mall, went hougang point with aunt, bought a professional yoyo, i lost mine previously, sian, bought a new one, shiok, damn fun, been quite a while already, damn fun, nothing much to blog alr, tomorrow's hairul's birthday! haha, he's a nice guy actually, going peninsula with him and abdullah after their friday prayers tomorrow, yay~ peninsula~ might be buying a bag :X spend money again *smacks self* k la i wanna go sleep liao, enjoy this wonderful video of Dir en grey live :D
8:06 PM
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Glass Skin - Dir En Grey
It comes and slowly stains my heart
That's been cold, all alone and so tightly closed
The sins are scattered everywhere
They're around me
I can't see it
It vainly comes just crashing down
In this sad and forgotten little town
The truth we tend to look away from lies down deep
I open out my wings of glass
Up and towards the wind melted future
So just please don't go
Please don't go
Be close to you
I lay my head on top of the heavy and closed out door and I pray
The lonely future left for me is one of meaning of just living
It comes and slowly stains my heart
That's been cold, all alone and so tightly closed
The sins are scattered everywhere
They're around me
I can't see it
It vainly comes just crashing down
In this sad and forgotten little town
The truth we tend to look away from lies down deep
I open out my wings of glass
Up and towards the wind melted future
So just please don't go
Please don't go
Wanna be close to you
I am now forgetting even the colours of your tears and love
So just please don't go
Please don't go
Holding on strong to what lies ahead
I bleed as my way of compensating everything to you
How heavy is blood?
Happiness and Sadness lies too close
The hand of the child born tomorrow will be just pure and nothing else
I can barely see you with all these tears
I open out my wings of glass
Up and towards the wind melted future
So just please don't go
Please don't go
Wanna be close to you
I am now forgetting even the colors of your tears and love
So just please don't go
Please don't go
Holding on strong to what lies ahead
The bell of reality rings out loudly from down deep within
And disappears with all the wind
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Today, i really really feel unlike myself, i just feel i can't stay in my clique any longer, to all who are in my clique, its not you guys, its just, me, i just, don't feel good with some of you guys around, i just don't feel right, i don't want to type it out here, cos its disrespectful, if any one of you wanna know, feel free to ask me, and yeah, i know my attitude is not good, but NOBODY's attitude is perfectly good, i have nothing to say, seriously. Bottom line, i suppose:
i'll leave.
It might be a bad choice now, but im sure it'll do you guys good in the long run, without an irritating idiot around (: i had great memories with you guys, seriously. (:
7:39 PM
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
2nd day of school! (1st day for me) bored -.- tired -.- jialat man~ my mind is full of the kelong pictures, my fishing rod, the fishing boat, you me i they we, WALAO EH!!!! 81 more days!!!!! and today played guitar again, until my skin all tearing, woo~ hardcore~! my aim: Jrocker! muahahahaha btw, today i thought of how my future will be, haha damn funny
17-19: ITE
19-21: Poly
21-23: NS
23-30: Find a stable job with stable income, earn my 1st 500K(or 1M), get married at age 27, have 2 kids, a girl and a boy, at 29, and own a BMW at age 30! so far la, thats what i thought, but my dream is to be a guitarist! or vocalist! haha, hope i can find a band soon! :D
girl, i still have feelings for you, i really do, you have never left my heart since that day, o1o1o9, 00.00am
9:54 PM
Monday, July 6, 2009
Details for the next trip.
READ EVERYTHING CAREFULLY.
As most of you guys wasn't able to go for the 1st kelong trip due to H1N1, here is a 2nd chance for those who missed out the 1st one, this time, you guys have 3 months to get ready your money, persuade your parents to allow you to go, and many other stuff, for this time. There might not be teachers going, but there'll be adults, like my parents, going, so you guys can tell your parents that if they do not allow you to go if there's no teachers going. To confirm your name, i will need you to pass me Deposit (RM100), transport fee (tbc) and snorkeling(RM40 if you are going), then your name will be confirmed.
And the only way to get back your money?
Ans: Go for the trip!
There will be NO REFUND after you have confirmed your name (and money) with us*. The expenses for the kelong are as follows:
You can get to me @ 92290262 please also, at the same time identify yourself.
You can also inform Aida, Abdullah or Ghufran if you're interested for the trip.
For snorkeling, inform Ghufran. For those who do not know Ghufran, feel free to look for me.
The slots will be closed TWO WEEKS before the trip, 12th September. Note:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=90667&id=644698778<- pics from 1st trip.
As most of you guys wasn't able to go for the 1st kelong trip due to H1N1, here is a 2nd chance for those who missed out the 1st one, this time, you guys have 3 months to get ready your money, persuade your parents to allow you to go, and many other stuff, for this time. There might not be teachers going, but there'll be adults, like my parents, going, so you guys can tell your parents that if they do not allow you to go if there's no teachers going. To confirm your name, i will need you to pass me Deposit (RM100), transport fee (tbc) and snorkeling(RM40 if you are going), then your name will be confirmed.
And the only way to get back your money?
Ans: Go for the trip!
There will be NO REFUND after you have confirmed your name (and money) with us*. The expenses for the kelong are as follows:
- Kelong accommodation - RM 155
- Transport:
- RM700 for 10pax = RM70/pax
- RM750 for 12pax = RM63/pax
- RM1800 & SGD 180 for 30pax = RM60 & SGD6/pax
- RM1700 & SGD 180 for 40pax = RM43 & SGD6/pax
- Boat Ticket - RM 4
- Fishing tools - RM 25
- Snorkeling - RM 40
You can get to me @ 92290262 please also, at the same time identify yourself.
You can also inform Aida, Abdullah or Ghufran if you're interested for the trip.
For snorkeling, inform Ghufran. For those who do not know Ghufran, feel free to look for me.
The slots will be closed TWO WEEKS before the trip, 12th September. Note:
- This trip is open to ANYONE, which means you can invite anyone you desire.
- The date will not be changed for anyone. Which means the date is fixed.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=90667&id=644698778<- pics from 1st trip.
11:14 PM
School tomorrow, dammit, im counting down to the next kelong trip already jialat :{ 82 more daysssssssssssss yeah, im stricter and fiercer this time after my 1st lesson (the 1st trip) and after heeding advice from aunt and ghufran, i should not be such a nice guy anymore, we (aida, ghup, abdullah and me) are the planners, we should have the last say. I know im gonna be labelled as "Bastard" soon, but i don't have a choice, i can't have ppl last minute cancelling and we (the people going) have to pay more cos of them, but for the last trip luckily, azhar was responsible enough, to own up and pay up the money, i thank azhar for that, and for the others, its not their fault, its the damned H1N1, lol, H1N1 pay money !! And i should make it clear here, the deposit for the last trip will all be returned =.= the note at facebook is for the NEXT trip lol, i guess i should stop here uh~ school tomorrow~ sian!! and tag my blog leh! ppl that read! my blog dying soon~~ @_@ bye all~!
10:36 PM
Alright guys, im back from the kelong, and im not going to school tomorrow, you guys can see the reason why -.- obviously, anyway, i had 2 fun-filled days, even though the weather pissed us off <_<>
12:27 AM
Friday, July 3, 2009
Alright, im getting ready to leave right now, will be back on sunday, anyway, i got myelf the GazettE's Distress and Coma :X
10:00 PM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Alright, wasted my whole day at home, playing my lousy guitar, which sounds awful ): anyone get me a new cut guitar? Please? Damn, practiced alot of the GazettE's songs, which made my fingers hurt like hell, ouch man, totally, even typing with my left hand now is damn painful, but i played it with Aoi's pick xD muahahahaha, i know people will be saying its a waste playing the guitar with Aoi's pick, but no worries, i bought 2 of it 8D yeah, called mac at around 12.45pm arrived at 1.15pm, damn shiok, eat liao no need eat dinner, haha, yeah, tomorrow going out with hairul to peninsula to see guitar and to buy stuff, and to go HMV to hunt for the GazettE's cd >D hope they have, with they have, haha, and the goddamned blogger still cannot upload pics, zzz soon my blog will be a wall of boring texts ): tomorrow night ton outsside :D at amk ave 6 de mac, come find me xD saturday morning: KELONG!!!! D: i should be happy but thanks to the damned H1N1, my friends can't come along, months of my hardwork and planning all went down to the drain, stupid H1N1!!! ):
10:06 PM
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
New song from the GazettE - The Invisible Wall, this is not official yet, so it might not be the full version, but its nice, a very nice song. Will be uploading the song for you guys to listen at the end of this post, nothing much happened today, as many have already known, the kelong trip, under the school's name is cancelled, thanks to the H1N1, fuck, and im already freaking pissed and my mum is here nagging at me, making me even more pissed off, and the fucker living on the 6th floor, above my unit, is dunno doing what thing, banging the floor or something, im really fucking pissed, but luckily, she was there, talking to her was like, talking to an angel about your troubles, she is just, my angel (:
You're like an angel who didn't keep her wings well and every reply from you, no matter long or short, were like drops of rainbow thatt gave colours to my life (:
8:05 PM
the GazettE - Nausea And Shudder
So long, to the nameless liberty
So long, swallow the fear
So long, jump higher than the others
Tear off the holy wing, jump, bursting eyes
Even if HEAVEN is covered with mud, it becomes a paradise if we live in it.
Carry on the daily life with gold plating coming off the shoulders and gathering the monotonous howls.
Althogh the wound is deep, keep on going. Yes, the REALITIES in front of your eyes are everything.
So long, break the darkness
So long, to the nameless liberty
So long, swallow the fear
So long, shaking heartbeat
LOOP, ask myself LOOP hate myself
At the end of this "LOOP" of suffering, I´ll be looking at HEAVEN`S DOOR.
A bird which belongs to a flock to the west will eventually feel loneliness
Looking at the thin wing you say: "Is this everything you desired?"
The view which everyone saw is worse than the end of the world getting dark
And I deeply prayed to a vanishing candle.
In deep, slowly sky.
You can stay there if you are afraid of the unknown future.
That´s what the forgotten "Nameless Liberty" used to say.
Now light is poured here, swearing not to escape from the unsettled future.
12:43 AM
