Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Seriously, sometimes, i don't even know why the fuck am i doing so much stuff for this kelong trip, all last minute come tell me cannot go, AFTER i have fucking booked the bus, and the kelong, i seriously can't stand it, im seriously on the verge of cancelling this whole fucking trip, if its still weeks away, i would surely cancel it away, damn, im getting into quarrels and loads of shits everyday cos of it, getting stressed up and lots of shit, damn, from a number of 38, to now, 23, thanks uh, for telling me, "ya i want to go, i confirm with you" _l_ F U C K Y O U
9:17 PM
WALAO, stupid blogger, cannot upload pic =.= zzz, anyways, today went to T3 and Changi Village with alvin, thanks uh alvin, pei me whole day, haha, nothing much to blog, will update again soon
8:54 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
Im damn fucking pissed by my dad, its my fucking holiday and i can fucking stay up late and do things that i like, e.g playing my guitar, and few minutes ago, he fucking say im disturbing people by playing my guitar and call me to go and sleep, fuck, make me pissed only, wait one day i buy electric guitar, make you die! fucker... anyways, back to something more happy, i got Aoi's Pick, which makes me very happy (: and the fucking blogger cannot upload pic zzzzzzz, i wan go sleep liiao, damn pissed
9:39 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Anyone remember Kei from ethe'Real? 异世界! yeah! the band which i went crazy over, and got their t-shirt HAHA, but Kei, the guitarist my idol, haha, he doesn't believe that he my idol, LOL so sad ): but yeah, spoke to him at msn after so long, finally 8D kinda stress when talking to him, my idol after all~ hope to play the guitar like him one day, :D and i made his day, he said that! got proof!
haha, kinda shiok talking to someone you idolise, its like, a dream come true? yeah something like that, anyways, today had AYG torch relay, lazy to upload pics :D and i bought a wallet :X jia lat, keep waste money hahaha and lastly, a few pictures of kei to refresh everyone's memory :P
woo!!!! shuai ge!
so damn cool la, kei rock! :D
8:09 PM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
OHMYGOD! I just did something crazy! I sent Fan Mail to Ruki! Hope he sees it :X and comes to my blog, RUKI YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!
11:43 PM
Okay, im here blogging for the last time before i go to "work" at aunt's house, dunno how long i'll be stuck there this time, hope it won't be long, i don't like staying there for long, cos of SOME reasons. (: anyways, pictures!
Cubby greeted me with high pitch barks when i reached there (:
And i went upstairs, my 2 nephews were there, haha, from left: Jay and Jovan, Jay just came back from NUH after 3 months of stay in the NICU, welcome home Jay!
And after slacking for the whole day we celebrated ah Qiang's birthday, Happy 20th Birthday Qiang! and Jovan was in his arms, haha, so cute Jovan :D
10:02 PM
Monday, June 15, 2009
I shall ask you guys a question, what 3 things would you do/you did on your 18th birthday? For me, the 3 things shall be
1) Buy Cigarette
2) Book Basic Theory
3) Smoke
I'll be dead if Mr Alex Loh is reading this, he has my blog link =.= LOL don't care la, anyways, im real stressed, thinking how chaotic the scene will be on the morning of 4th July *shivers* hope everything will be fine! Tomorrow going aunt house, see my 2 darling dogs and my 2 cute nephews : D will take pics to post here (: stay tuned!
9:10 PM
Finished changing blogskin, its Ruki from the GazettE 1st day of holidays, bored, rotted at home for the whole day, no job, shit man, i really need a damn job soon, i need cash, cold hard cash, god dammit, and im here, blogging with no cash in my wallet or bank. DAMN! 婷婷, 我爱你!
8:46 PM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Yesterday went out with RJ for the whole day, firstly, we went to bugis, he went to take his toys, and then we went to the arcade to search for DJMax Technika, but to no avail, after that we travelled to Causeway Point as i knew there was one Technika machine there. After we reached, we went to Man Master to see the biker jacket, damn cool, but S$90 T__T after that we went to the arcade, we saw the machine and straight away we bought a Power Card, and started playing, for 2 hours plus, haha, check out the pics and vids (:
RJ: Failed!
Didn't take a video of me playing though, i always pass the 1st 2 songs, always die at the last song =.= and there was this damn cute girl who wanted to play and when we let her play she thanked us like a japanese, haha, she was damn cute, and there was this guy who was damn action =.= kns, after playing, RJ treated me to eat KFC, then we went to his house to play Resident Evil 5, damn fun, haha, didn't take any pics though, im going his house again soon, shall take pics (:
2:19 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
Back to blog, a short post, gonna go sleep soon, went school today and CS-ed the whole day, we pwned QA, yeah, and after that went ssc buy tank top, then went causeway point, watched Drag Me To Hell, quite a shocking show, Rach and Rand screamed, LOL, and Rach grabbed my hand like dunno what liddat =.= Alvin, Andy and me took it lightly LOL, yeah, after that came home, went gym, and came home, now im like a jelly, LOL
11:08 PM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Friends? What's that? Can it be eaten?
11:22 PM
A cigarrete a day keeps the doctor away (:The problem is, i don't have cigarettes ):
Lately i'm feeling more and more down, i also don't know why, i feel happy when my friends are around, thats true, but after they leave, i have an empty feeling in my heart, i just don't know why, all i can know is, something is missing in my life, this one thing which up till today i have not found it, i myself do not know what it is too, i'll have to leave it to fate to tell me what it is.
Went Causeway Point after school today, with Alvin, Rach, Amanda and SYF, Amanda left us after we reached to get her tongue piercing, then Alvin, Rach, SYF and me went walk walk, ate at the Banquet, saw DJ Max Technika there, the 1st in Singapore, rare sight, then after eating, we went shopping around Causeway Point, Alvin bought his sleeping bag, and we went cold storage walk walk, Amanda came back to find us, with her sister, Cloe, both of them went to pierce their tongue, actually got take pic of Amanda tongue de, she go delete =.= wth, there are other chance, nevermind (: after that took 161 back home, then went Hougang Mall Cotton On, buy 4 Tank tops, 2 for me, 2 for Alvin, and 2 Berms for me, after that came back home, feel like sleeping already, hmm, long day for me, but an even longer day tomorrow, CARWASH! Changed my blogsong to Guren, by the GazettE, will post the lyrics at the end of this post after one of my favourite videos, by the GazettE, Miseinen, its damn emotional, enjoy!
This is from one of their performances, there'll be another one, tomorrow, same song, different concert, do pardon my Ruki darling as he is crying when singing this song, thats why he sounds strange.
紅蓮(Guren) - the GazettE ガゼット
I'm sorry... after awhile, let me sleep by your name
The passing days drew us closer
The pain is matched with joy.
Both hands reflect that
I cry when I think of you.
There is a rain of sadness
It's fine just to remain unknown.
I tremble for repose, I remembered
What do you want to see in this reeled in dream?
I don't want you to fade
Let me hear, even a sigh.
A small heartbeat, that isn't there
I want you, come here!
Unchanging dreams, if this continues on
Please don't pause in your happiness.
Even if it doesn't need to call out, but,
The drowning days are piling over me.
I don't want you to fade
Let me hear, even a sigh
A small heartbeat, that isn't there
I want you, come here!
Even the hands of salvation is also in vagueness
Will there be a cocoon at intervals of the second, Without the string tearing off?
I don't want you to fade
I want to hear, even a sigh.
Little rhythm to the sound of the heartbeat
Of touched prayers delivered.
The name which I cannot call out I held closely
Counting with my fingers, I don't want tomorrow to disappear.
Hearing with blocked ears
The sound of a broken cradle.
The spring time will never come again
The crimson lotus is in bloom.
9:09 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
They don't see the real me.Early post for the day, as i can feel im already going down, and Maple just patched, and mine has problems, so im actually freaking re-downloading it, CPA CA Test today was kinda easy, but im not sure whether i will pass or not, just hope that i pass, and a few more people have withdrawn from the kelong trip, kinda stressed up now, worrying that the price might go up and people will start complaining again, just hope no more withdrawals again, anyway, i self-declared holidays already, might be working at clarke quay pushcart for the next few weeks, hope everything goes well (: and lastly, a video of the GazettE, playing the song, Okuribi, enjoy! (:
7:12 PM
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
im back blogging, totally tired, took bus this morning, found out that i was in Buona Vista when i woke up, luckily i was not late, and damn, my contact lens are irritating =.= hope my eyes can get used to it, and hope its nothing serious, sigh, the kelong trip got 4 withdraw liao, sian, getting stressed, the money part, a lot of them are complaining, complain complain complain, planning this trip ain't easy at all, do you know? do you even fucking know? luckily this is the last week of school, looking for a job soon, need the cash, for my 40lbs Braided 300m line, and the $200 i owe Sochii brother, zzz, damn it... life is stressful, i don't have enough time, and my family is ... omg... that is why i wanna quit school, my parents can't even let me survive, i really need to get a source of income soon, or else the next thing i know is loan sharks chasing after me. Gotta go sleep, goodnight. Girl, i found out i've fallen in love with you, seriously. im sorry.
9:39 PM
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Imma, back to blog? School is bored, bored bored bored, and im feeling more and more down, day by day, i need a break, with someone special, friends, maybe, that one special person, maybe, definitely not my family, for sure, my friends are the only reason im going to school now, even if i feel very very down now, once i reach school tomorrow, there will be a smile on my face, no matter what, even if the sky falls on us, our bonds will be strong enough to overcome it.
(:
8:59 PM
Im in school right now, Mdm Hasnah is at the front, revising BEV, which i totally have no interest in, and im like freaking sick right now, i feel like im gonna die, damn, im so unwell, i should just die, zzz
9:40 AM
Monday, June 1, 2009
Hmm, im back to blogging, the day i hate most is coming soon, don't ask me when it is, what day it is, why do i hate it, i just hate it, alot, thanks, btw, just went Hougang Mall to buy living essentials, bought a few pen, a pair of shades, a arm band, a thumb drive, and blah, just sian la, by the way, there is more and more people going to the kelong trip, which is a good and a bad thing, good thing is everyone can pay less and less money, the bad thing, more thing for me to do =.= hope i can cope with it, luckily Ghufran and Alvin are helping me, and tomorrow we'll have to go to Mr Loh's class to promote this trip =.= STRESS ): tomorrow BEV Retest, Wednesday BEV CA Test, Friday CPA Progress Test, Next Wednesday CPA CA Test zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sian ):
Lately i've always been thinking about this through my mind, "Why am i here in ITE?" "Am i wasting my time here?" "I totally have no more interest in study" "Did i make the right choice?" "Should i quit school?" seriously, i myself don't even know why am i doing here in this ITE, knowing Rachael, Alvin and the clique has already been a blessing, and now i can't study, my brain is not functioning, im totally disappointing them, sometimes i seriously feel i don't deserve such nice friends, i guess i'll go into serious consideration about quitting school.
Smiley gang (:
8:53 PM
