back to blog xD
haha ... tomorrow finally no more boring lessons!!! but got boring field trip =.=
SIANS!!!!! how i help she will help me get outta dis boredom~~ maybe its possible?(NOT!!!)
if she will right? i am seriously willing to die for it lor haix...
friday got boring enrichments!!!!! waste time+$$ why teachers like to make us waste money and time for nothing? walao ehs~~ sibei sian sia~~~ and~~~

i wanna buy the ticket from her!!!!!!

zzz when dis "SHE" sees dis, please, dis is how i really want to help u!!!! haix~~ i really love her larhhs~~~ !!!!
btw, maybe my funeral is next friday... anyone wanna come? cos if i nvr go sec 4 express, dere will be my funeral... so, anyone? erm... registration open!!!!!
sms me or nudge me if u are interested =D

and if i really die, will u(the SHE) come for my funeral?
i guess u maybe wun care and will maybe even be happy ba?
haix... life is boring, life is great and im in de middle of dis 2!!!!
after next friday i will have an answer to all of dis and it will end all dis things...
but wad i feel is ...

die, 70%
survive, 30%

if SHE can say sometinng encouraging, (which is not possible T.T) i will surely change it to

die, 0%
survive, 100%

cos i said dat i will do anything dat she says and will do anything to make her happy...
haix... please!!!! will dere be dis day? dat u come and be a better friend of mine?

haix...

TO: her ...I LOVE U LARHHS!!!!!! get it? understand? the 1 dat always scolds me idiot... de 1 dat made me drop a tear cos of it... de 1 dat made me wanna work hard juz to impress u... de 1 dat made me understand life...

im kinda happy n kinda sad n kinda f***ed up now ><"'

happy
is cos she call me update blog haha den i will update lols haha she oso got read my blog sia woohoo~~~ but ytd i nvr blog is cos i high fever at around erm... 8pm liddat den i cant even see properly, damn dizzy liddat so no blog ... sorry!!!!!

sad
im sad is cos she still kinda dun like me? or sth ... like dat i dunno how 2 explain...den my meimei... haix... so kelian... i wun write here larhhs i promise her wun say de xP

f***ed up
i still having slight fever+sore throat+flu!!!!!!! WALAO EH!!!!! DYING LIAO LA!!!!!if she care for me hor .. wa~~~ i dunno how happy i will be ~~~ i will even die for juz dat u noe?? haha aandd now still at extended program... haix ... SIAN AR!!!!! but muz study hard for next yr~~~

and~~~ she oways say my blog post everytime shorter den hers... dis time should be longer den hers le larhhs



wahahahahahahaha i win~!!!!!!!! but i love u~~~~

woke up @ 1 + today... kinda like tired...
den used com, kinda "xialan" wif her today a little ...
but even if i xialan wif her, all ppl noe dat i realy really really love her alot...
how i wish we were together ... but u dun like me...
how dhha hell can we be together? haix...
now all i hope is u are willing to accept help from me as a fren...
but u dun seem keen on letting me help u... haix...
ARGHH!!!!!! i really screwed up my life!!!!!
how i wish i can go back in time, back to when i was sec 1 ...
i would study hard, and when sec 3 i would go befriend her de 1st time i see her...
but, its totally IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!
maybe... one day ... u might realise wad i did ...
or maybe ... u will hate me for wad i did and for me loving u...
i oso dunno wad is ur choice ...
i oso dunno wad i will do ...
go on wif my perserverence or juz give up...
MAYBE LQ is right ... i should make my own choice ...
so ... i've been thinking...
if i go to sec 4 express, i will continue wif wad im doing now...
and if i go anywhere else, i shall completely give up on u...
i noe u'll be wishing me dun go sec 4 express yea? hmm...





maybe...

she doesn't wanna see me
she doesn't like me(its like, duh, of cos la!!)
she is kinda irritated by me? (guess nia)


zzz ... half of me is already giving up...
de other half is still perservering...
which side should i follow?
please, anybody enlighten me please...


and if i dun go to sec 4 express = die ...
and im kinda afraid im retaining/dropping
im under all kinds of stress...


wad dha hell shud i do?????
im oredi dying...
even though i said i will never ever give up ...
my half is oredi gonna give up...


which side should i choose?????
wad i do den will please her???? please !!!! YOU de 1 reading!!!! tell me ur ans @ de tagboard!!!!!!!

lalala~~~ SHE is so beautiful~~~ <3.<3>

hehe ... finally i am back to post~~ cos SOMEBODY say i muz post haha she see dis confirm say "idiot" de cos she say dun write abt her but i cant help it =P
love her too much le...
and my mind is full of her so, wadever i say/write will surely think of her de...
DUN ANGRY HOR!!!! I WILL DIE DE xD im sure she not dat petty la but she is pretty haha
today went to some shitty f&n course, starting think "aaiya sian la, not fun de" but! when go dere its quite fun and oso got 1 chio teacher which made my buddys all "high" haha i admit i oso la but i still love my her most haha lols...
tomorrow is e-learning day ...
sibei sian!!!!!!
cannot see her + loads of homework!!!!!!
NO~!!!!!!
2 chinese compo =(
1 SS ws(NO!!!!!!)
1 physics quiz (aiya no kik la xP)
1 FNN ws (OMG!)
zzz muz finish by 30 oct ... heng ar...
but cfm difficult de ...
sian la!!!!! i wan see her T.T
i miss her man!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!! zzz maybe tml go back skool? haha jkjk lols
oright, gtg nitez all and bye~~

girl, i swear i love u wif all my heart and i will nvr let u drop a tear cos i love you for who u are
even if u dun love me, i will guard u wif all my heart and nvr let u get hurt
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

yawns~~ dam sian... more n more lazy to blog le... cos i miss her till crazy ... right? everyone? haha
hope SHE noes it too....
in fact i guess she noes haha
at least she noes la haha
zzz nth to say la...
went to make neew specs today n maybe i am making contact lens ( YES!)
haha sian la sian la sian la

i'll die if i live without thinking of you...

ask those in nyp course, dey all noe ... i am likee goin crazy everyday cos of u!!!

u are all i haf left!!!!

PLEASE DUN BE ANGRY!!!!!!!

its my fault!!!! its my fault!!! its my fault!!

ITS MY FAULT !!!!!!!!! I AM SORRY xxxx xxx xx

PLEASE!!!!!!!!! T_T IM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

kill me if possible!!!!!!!!! PLEASE xxx xx !

dun get angry!!! i'll die!!! i noe u dun care ... but it hurts ...

u noe? how it feels?

I AM SINCERLY SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

“So Near, Yet so Far”
Words and lyrics by Daniel & JingKai

*Verse 1*
I’ve been sitting around
Waiting for someone like you to come around
(to come around)
No matter how long I wait
I know it’ll never be great (never be great)
Even If I’m feeling down
You know I’ll never come around

*Bridge*
I’ll know that you won’t be there for me
But you would be the only one I’ll see

*Chorus*
Cos I Know
That We can’t go on
But I’ll have to keep staying strong
And I want
To be here with you
But I know
That it can’t be true
So near but yet so far

*Verse 2*
No matter how I want you
I’ll know I’ll never come through(never come through)
U know I’ll always love you
I’d run a thousand miles to get you
(thousand miles to get you)
You Know I’ve waited for so long
And I need the strength to carry on

*bridge*
I’ll know that you won’t be there for me
But you would be the only one I’ll see

*Chorus*
Cos I Know
That we can’t go on
But I’ll have to keep staying strong
And I want
To be here with you
But I know
That it can’t be true
So near but yet so far

*middle part*
You know that I’ve waited for so damn long
No matter what I do I just can’t go on
Keep Telling myself I’d be true to you
I Swear that’s true
You’ll be forever gone

*Soft Part* piano (high octave)
Cos I Know
That we can’t go on
But I’ll have to keep staying strong
And I want
To be here with you
But I know
That it can’t be true


*Chorus*
Cos I Know
That We can’t go on
But I’ll have to keep staying strong
And I want
To be here with you
But I know
That it can’t be true
So near but yet so far

So Near But Yet so far…

girl, i wanna be with u... please...
saw u smile today...
u always haf dat sweet smile on ur face...
but...
why?
should i juz die?
since u hate me now...
i dun feel there is anything dat is worth living for
my band, dere is two other drummers and a vocal
my class, they will be happy if im not around...
my hse, dey couldn't be much more happier...
girl, u are so near, yet so far...
this might be my final post... or not...
or MAYBE...

GAMEOVER!

hey hey hey all paiseh man lately kinda busy i gtg tml den i update i promise ;D

zzz...dunno y feel so emo all of a sudden...haix...
LOVE is de cause.... it always never fails to upset me...
im sure LOVE have either made everyone upset or happy b4...
i juz hate it!!!! dis feeling... of
1)emo-ing when u ignore me or dun wanna reply me or when ure angry...
2)happy when ure happy and when i see u smiling...
its like when its a sunny day, a thunderbolt comes and de rain follows...
get me?
haix... tml will be ur last paper...
give everything u've got ... jiayou...
and u will see me retaining...
im sure im retaining dis yr...
im too lousy at studies...
i juz hate myself...
for being such a failure & useless
and lately u seem quite emo?
i dunno... i juz wanna let u noe...
whenever u nid a listening ear, i'll be there for u ...
and no matter wad happens, i will never leave u alone...
i will... always be there for u...
i love u ... i seriously do...

=) it all begins with a smile, and ends wif a tear rolling down a cheek... T.T
dats how i pass my day everyday...
i noe u all might say im a weak guy la, emo, or wadever shit, but i juz cant control myself...
in de morning, i see u, im happy...
at night when i sms u, i dun wanna say it out...
and dere is de tear...
i noe im ugly nameless, thanks for de concern...
i noe i pei bu shang her, but, i noe it matters..
looks is one of de most important thing...
i juz dunno wad u wan...
can u juz tell me? please...
good luck for de remaining papers...

...
i still fell dat i was born to love u...
i seriously was born to do dat ...
cos i feel different when i see u ...
i juz ... wanna be wif u !!!
i juz ... can sacrifice anything to be wif u!!!
i love you!!!
i seriously dO!!!
i nOe maybe, i dun stand a chance,
maybe, u will hate me bcos of dis,
BUT!!!!
i will never give up!!!! u hear me ????girl, if u are reading my blog, i hope u can understand why im writing all dis ...
cos im practically going crazy over u!!!!
dere is nobody like u!!!
i like u cos u are u!!!!
sigh, i gues its useless wasting my time writing all dis...
but i juz wan u to noe ... dat i really do love you...

feeling so all alone ...
and i finally noe dat who are my true friends dat will stand by me, and who are those dat juz be friends for fun...
i guess i should be getting some sleep...
bye all!!!
good luck for EOY!!!
and of course, girl, jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!
i will support u all de way~~!!!!
i love you!!!

hi .... im back ... wif a dead heart...
im dead im dead im dead understand?
DEAD!!!!!!
T.T
i ... juz dunno wad 2 write now...
im juz dead~!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!
no matter wad de world becomes, i will still say
"i love you"
to de one i love ...
i will overcome everything, all things, juz to tell you a thing i've always wanted to say...
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
understand?
i was born to love you
to take care of you

girl,
I was born to love you
with every single beat of my heart, yes
I was born to take care of you
every single day of my life....

even if u said anything ... i will never give up cos
i was born to love and take care of you...

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurtI can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell youI want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world


dat is de meaning of my blog song ... and girl(u noe hu u are)
dis song is wad i wanna sing 2 u ...
i love you...
if u are angry wif dis post tell me ... i will delete it if u dun like it...
pls ... a chance is all i nid...
i noe love cant be forced ...
so ... if really one day ... one day ...
if u wanna gif me a chance ...
gif me a clue ... and im all ready for it ...
to show u how much i love you ...
and how muc i can sacrifice juz 2 be wif u ...
i see u more and more often now ...
i hope dat im getting closer to u ...
every sms u reply me, i am very happy... happier den anything in de whole world...
jiayou for ur EOY ...

~~oooh~~lala~~~ i dunno why i so happy ... haha ... i be frank la
now she noe dat i like her liao ...
all i wish is dat she doesn't avoid me ..
even though its juz a sms reply, i was happy since dat reply wif juz two letters =.=
BUT!!!!
im still happy~~~
yea~~ saw her today quite alot of time ^^ so happy when saw her but i dun dare walk pass her..
cos~
i too ugly liaoo ~~~
zzz
den, when me & sam playing bball, she and another gal(i shall not say who it is) walked pass de bball court... my heart ... was ... BOOM BOOM BOOM!!! wad i waas thinkin in my mind is "OMG OMG why she here????" OMG wad should i do ??? arghh~~~~!!!!" but luckily, nth happened ... phew...
plus ... dere is a SOMEBODY dat i dunno who dat is spreading abt me & her ... i am seriously, very angry wif dat person... didn't he or she think abt HER feelings? ppl is gal leh... u wan say say my name can liao i dun mind my reputation become kanasai... cos i've been in dis skool v long le... i dunwan her de reputation become kanasai cos she is new 2 de skool ... if dat SOMEBODY is reading dis blog and u want to admit its u, i still can forgive u ... at least u admitted...
BUT!!!!!
if u dunwan admit and u let me find out who are u .... u better watch out...

plus ... today went "study" wif elisa, lynn, stella & shermin
haha dey were studying and i was playing =P
lol
and we talked about some stuff dat should not be posted here as some will buay song ...
so if u guys reading de blog wanna noe wad we talked abt, u wait long long cos onli we 5 will noe ...

bye~~~ phew 1st time so long post haha~~