Kai Kamiya

2009-11-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

Im finally blogging! Just came back from work, super funny day at work today, super lot of jokes, time just passed, damn funny HAHAHA

anyways, i also dunno what to blog lately, just to update, my piercing is fine~ and my mum kinda found out, but act blur LOL also good uh~

School's fine lately, just like to attitude teachers :X i don't know why, i just like to see teachers with the tak boleh tahan face, LOL!

And my piercing got caught, again and again, fuck, at school, of cos, and i didn't get to watch Chelsea vs Man Utd, im so sad, Man Utd lose cos i no watch, thats why! :X

Gonna receive my pay on sunday! Man Utd Jersey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

Fucking tired, short post, my piercing still kinda hurts, and its slightly infected, i guess, cos got the pus come out :X touchwood! hope nothing will happen! Went school today feeling damn tired, zzz then after school went work, fucking tired, i swear, btw, i levelled up le! LOL~ no more fries for me, i fry the other stuffs! McChicken, McSpicy, McNuggets, Fillets, Apple Pie & McWings :D

Super slack, seriously, u can stand there and blank stare one LOL!

But!

Sadly, im going to quit at the end of this month :X

:P sleeping soon!

2009-11-07T14:12:00.000+08:00

Yes, guess the rest, on your own :D

girl, you will never know i loved you once.

2009-11-04T00:11:00.001+08:00

Back for a short post, i hate my job

kthxbai

kidding la, but seriously i hate it, gonna quit at end of this month, Acha is gonna help me get a better job, i hope :D

2009-10-29T19:29:00.002+08:00

Today, was a ... FUCKING TIRING DAY -.-

I was like half dead when i woke up, seriously, went school, see my friends, hyper, jialat, more tired, then, saw ...... went home straight after school, once i reached home, i collapsed on my bed and fell asleep -.- that was how tired i am D:

Woke up for work, went to work, after one hour of work, the manager told me that i haven't got my punch card, so i can't work zzz sadded, so i came home, im actually kinda happy :D can rest :D wooooo! enjoy the following vid :D

2009-10-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

2nd day of work, my legs are definitely giving way -.-

Went to school today with a half asleep brain, went to mum's office to get my documents, went to the clinic to get my injection, and wow, i finally can overcome my fear of injections, it didn't hurt THAT much -.- so much for being so damn worried -.-

Came home, slept like a pig, woke up, went for work, this will be my daily life D: Damn sad please! D: But for my Forest-GT!!! WORK HARD KAI KAMIYA!!! And i think im gonna slim down at this rate, stand for 5 hours per day.

2009-10-27T22:23:00.002+08:00

Just came back from work, woah, i can tell you, Mcdonald's is damn tiring -.-

Received my 1st pay=$12 for working from 6-10pm it's my 1st day so the pay rate is $3/Hr

Gonna go get an injection tomorrow zomfgwtfbbq D: i scared injection!!!!

Hope i can get the paperwork done by tomorrow and start working from tomorrow :D tomorrow jiu $3.50/Hr le, WOO! Pay increase just after one day! LOL -.-

Anyways, next time you go to Hougang Mall's Mac to eat, please kindly,

DON'T PLAY WITH YOUR FUCKING FOOD! YOU KNOW HOW DISGUSTING IT IS TO CLEAR UP YOUR FUCKING MESS? =X kidding nia.

But seriously, its ... ugh! I would really appreciate if you don't play with your food :D

And it's really tiring, especially when u have to clear the bin, haha, at least can take a breather, but u have to withstand the garbage dump's smell, and can't sit down, my leg hurts now D: money is seriously difficult to earn, but for my wants, and my debts :X MUST WORK!!! and after my debts, GUITARS! My Forest-GT! My DS-2! And there's this girl, damn cute, haha, and the manager tell me must smile more D: i'll try!!! :D

Need some sleep already, bye!

2009-10-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

Today was a better day, but actually, a bad day, woke up with a bad bad bad headache, damn...

Dragged myself to school, had CSO test, then went for WRB, got caught for my hair -.- so i went to shave off my side :X i know not nice, but i lazy go cut and cut and cut liao...

After school went to cut hair, then went to bugis to pray with Aunt, Jovan, Jay, Melissa and Norie, sent them back home then me and aunty went to Tampines to pray and i got a talisman, went Hougang Point to buy the "2-in-1 dining table & chair" for Jay & Jovan, then ate at aunt's house jiu came home, damn tired -.- gonna sleep soon! 御休み！

2009-10-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

Im back from my 5km self-torturing run!

And of course, i did some reflection, and yeah, Alvin & Rach kinda ... woke me up?

I find it damn stupid of me to do such stupid stuffs -.- Seriously, damn laugh-able can?

Of course, i will apologize to Siyan & Amanda tomorrow, i hope i can pull it through though...

Siyan

I have nothing much to say, just, sorry for insulting you, hope you accept my apology. (:

Amanda

Got a lot to say... 1st, i must apologize about jumping into conclusions that you were scolding me, instead, as rach said, you were just advising me to apologize, so yeah, must apologize to you about that, sorry!

Im feeling positive! I hope i can continue this till i graduate! 頑張れ！

2009-10-20T12:51:00.008+08:00

To you guys, i know you are reading this

I know, its my fault okay? I will recieve my punishment, okay?

I don't fit to have you as my friend, okay?

I don't fit to even have a friend okay?

My attitude sucks, and my personality suck, okay?

ITS MY FAULT OKAY?

I don't deserve friends like you guys.

Satisfied?

If this still doesn't satisfy you, do whatever you like to satisfy you, tell me when you're done.

No sarcasm intended, i just wanna settle this as soon as possible (:

Today, is just another bad day, going for 5km run later on, hope the best happens, cardiac arrest (:

& I think Clementi ITE de Wind Water (Fengshui) no good, keep got problems, LOL kidding la -.-

2009-10-19T19:46:00.005+08:00

Today was a very very bad day... Went school for 1st and 2nd lesson only, and left at 11am, due to some spite from some comment made by someone, without a proof, which pissed me off, like totally, even though he did apologize in the end, im still pissed.

So went to the gym straight after school, reached the gym around 1230pm, started training the hell out of myself, relieve all the anger, sadness, disappointment and whatever that is, just to drain my energy away~ Left the gym at around 230pm, went home, used com and bathed, left the house at 315pm~

Went to Punggol beach, again, to emo, again, thinking of all those things that happened since school started, i can only say, this is the worst start of a term in my whole life, seriously, im damn sad, im not ashamed to say, i cried at the beach, especially when i see the picture of me and you, it's all history, yes, im a guy, and i cry =)

Left the beach at around 430pm, reached hougang mall, and took 113, actually wanted to loop, but saw aunt's car, met her up, go supermarket, then jiu home-ed :D

Im gonna move on.

You will never know how much i miss you. x/3

2009-10-18T20:53:00.003+08:00

Back! So, went to Boss's new house and we can't do much cos the paint ain't done yet, damn.

And RuoNee ain't feeling well, so she went to see a doctor with Boss, hope she's okay, whereas Ruo, RJ & Me went back to their house, near Yuying, played basketball, i can swear to you, my motivation to slim down seriously drove me to my limits, i almost fainted actually :X And my leg cramped for a few times ugh, hurts, but the thought of SOMETHING, drove me to continue exercising, my eyes are already closing in fact :D And i scored a lot of 3 pointers today! :D But my wrist hurts now D:

After playing basketball, went to RJ's house, both of them washed up and bathed, and headed to my house, my turn to wash up and bath and stuff, went to Hougang Mall for dinner, walked a few shops, and i saw the shirts, pants and blazer i wanna buy after i've slimmed down, i guess it's gonna be in the near future! :D Saw Man Utd's jersey, damn~ 99 bucks~ i shall pray to god money will fall! Went to eat at Pastamania, FUCK :X i should be exercising like a mad man this week, haha, feel so damn guilty after eating Pastamania.

Went to the big NTUC after eating and the siblings bought stuff and i sent them to the bus stop and here i am, back here, tomorrow, week 2~! Im gonna chiong all exercising and hope i can lose 6kg, i shall try to aim for 90kg at the end of this week, i know its unhealthy, the wrong way and stuff, but, c'mon man, i've been fat for like... 9 years? Its time for me to make a difference!

Gonna go sleep soon, Ciao!

Time is gonna reveal everything.

2009-10-18T09:52:00.004+08:00

Good morning everyone, i slept at 5 and just woke up, gotta go down to RuoNee & Patrick boss's new home, help them out with some electrical line stuff, meeting Ruo at 11am later, we will be playing basketball actually :X

Anyway, i feel there's something wrong with me, i don't know whats this feeling all about.

I don't know whats this, i hope its not another one.

But, i see her almost everyday -.-

Nevermind, time shall give me an answer, another 7 weeks to go!

A wrap up of "Project slim down you pig."

Week 1:

Original weight: 100kg

Current weight: 96kg

Lost: 4kg

Week 2 will start tomorrow, by the end of the holidays i hope i lose at least 15-20kg, i hope i can (:

心からキミを愛してる

キミに降る痛みを拭ってあげたいすべて I for You

僕わ何てんだいよ？馬鹿！

2009-10-18T03:23:00.002+08:00

When love hurts or loving someone hurts, and whether that person is aware or not, it hurts, like this song, 爱太痛 by 吴克群

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能够不能够不爱了
我不能睡

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

A meaningful song, suits me (:

2009-10-18T02:45:00.003+08:00

Hot news!

Aston Villa Vs Chelsea

2 - 0

Personal Comments: It was an unexpected win, but its a fantastic win by Aston Villa! :D

Arsenal Vs Birmingham

3-1

Personal Comments: Not much, it was expected (:

Man Utd Vs Bolton

2-1

Personal Comments: It was kind of a disappointing, because actually they can win with a clean sheet, but Van Der Sar played a nice game from an injury, Owen was really disappointing, 2 chances for him but he didn't grab it.

Sunderland Vs Liverpool

1-0

Personal Comments: As hoped, Sunderland has got a splendid win for them, but it was to Liverpool's disadvantage, as two of their star players, Steven Gerrard and Fernando Torres are both down with injury, expected back in October, so that may explain their loss.

Wigan Vs Man City

Tomorrow.

So now the league table stands as follows:

Team, Played, Points

1) Manchester United 9 22

2) Chelsea 9 21

3) Tottenham 9 19

4) Arsenal 8 18

5) Man City 7 16

6) Aston Villa 8 16

7) Sunderland 9 16

8) Liverpool 9 15

9) Stoke City 9 12

10) Burnley 8 12

11) Everton 8 11

12) Wigan Athletic 8 9

13) Bolton 8 8

14) Wolves 9 8

15) Fulham 7 7

16) Birmingham 9 7

17) Blackburn 7 7

18) Hull City 8 7

19) West Ham Utd 8 5

20) Portsmouth 9 3

2009-10-17T15:58:00.003+08:00

Okay, so i was bored ~.~ so i got myself a tattoo :D

Okay, "tattoo" haha, 7pm going RJ house !

我和你, 再好, 再亲密, 都不能在一起, 最后看你在别人怀里. ):

2009-10-17T12:15:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 9 today, slept at around 7.30pm yesterday :X

Actually was supposed to go to gym today morning but, my body just can't move, full of aches -.-

Yesterday was a terrible day until i saw my weight, i lost 4kg already \m/

I will continue this until im happy with my weight :D

Tonight there is so many nice matches going on! ZOMG~ Gonna catch all of them @ RJ's house later on!

Aston Villa Vs Chelsea

I would say Chelsea's gonna win~ (:

Arsenal Vs Birminham

I would say Arsenal's gonna win~ (:

Man Utd Vs Bolton

Manchester United, Obviously! (:

Sunderland Vs Liverpool

I would say Sunderland has got a good chance~ (:

Wigan Vs Man City

I would say Man City's gonna win~ (:

But, Wayne Rooney is not going to play in today's match due to injury, Darren Fletcher is doubtful, Michael Owen and Edwin Van Der Sar WILL play in tonight's match, lets just hope for the best!

I shall post the results of the above matches tomorrow morning!

Glory Glory Man United!

2009-10-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

Blogging for 2nd time, worked out, woo, my legs are, gonna cramp -.-

Tomorrow morning go gym chiong! People go club chiong i go gym chiong \m/

Anyone remembers Kiyo? She's my dollfie remember? :D Changed her legs today.

Haha sounds strange :X.

Damn nua now ~.~ Gonna practice guitar later~

One more! \m/

I just found out, i got no Reita! D:

I will forget what happened yesterday and today, take it as none of it has taken place.

2009-10-16T09:23:00.011+08:00

Im so damn fucking pissed that i need to blog now, fuck

I hate people criticising on things that i like, seriously, like, since when did i criticise on things that YOU like? fuck.

People criticising me fat, im okay with it, cos im really fat, i know that.

People criticising me pimple face, im okay with it, cos i really do have alot of pimples.

People criticising JRock/the GazettE, FUCK YOU! Especially when i did not ever criticise on the type of music you like and the band you like! FUCK!

I think even Sochii bro will get mad at you, saying the GazettE gay, like transexual, and the best, saying their music suck, at least they can get famous using their songs, what about you? Do you even know how to write music? Are you very good looking? Fuck you man, think twice, at least they earn more money than you, i doubt you can even get famous in SG, but they are already famous throughout the whole wide world.

THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU SPEAK. FUCK!

Early in the morning i was already feeling agitated over little things, and here you give me this type of shit, fuck you la, fuck you. Totally spoiled my whole day.

P.S: This post is dedicated to those that say the GazettE/JRock suck. FUCK YOU.

-end of pt 1-

Continued:

Now im at home, tiring myself out, rocking the hell outta my house, just not to go think of the fucking thing that happened today. Anyway, today i finally know who and who i should hang out with, Andy and me both are utterly disappointed, and another one, who don't know a single shit and tries to act to be the angel, wow, rotten angel eh? -'-'.'-'-

I have nice "friends" ! ^_^

Kai of the GazettE, in your face bitch!

2009-10-14T16:41:00.003+08:00

Went school as per normal today, but lessons 3 hours only, pon-ed S&W, reached hougang at around 1+ came home, washed up, headed down to gym at around 2.15, met Qiang, he's still as fit as ever ;A; trained like crazy at the gym, and there was this indian guy who trained too hard and he injured his hand, and he totally can't move it, scary -.- but i will still continue to pump, wahahaha yeah, and now im very very, tired -.- i guess i'll sleep early today (:

Felt so good after training, even though my arms are aching like fuck, and they're like vibrating automatically, and they're turning into jelly -.-

thats all for today, another picture for the GazettE fans! \m/!

Uruha! 8D Pretty!

One day I will show you. The sky that shines with light.

2009-10-14T05:46:00.002+08:00

Yes, im awake early today, waiting for time to pass, and keep reminding myself to stay strong, very strong, I. Shall. Prevail. muahahahaha -.- anyways, mum has given me consent to go to the Kelong next Saturday, hope this time i go there, i leave my sad memories there, and let it be blown away by the monsoons~ But, i won't forget, the pain i endured.

Lately kinda tuning my body, stopped smoking, decided to quit for good.

Another picture for the GazettE!!! \m/

Sochii's husband :D

2009-10-13T18:50:00.002+08:00

Tribute to the GazettE

2009-10-13T16:47:00.004+08:00

Today was actually quite a happy day, but it ended as a bad day, went to school, had slacking lessons, then Mr Alvin Chan's lesson as last one, he is really a very nice teacher, i am happy having him to teach us, after that, took 165 from Clementi back to home, came home~ on-ed com, saw something which made my day bad, yeah, if anyone wanna knows what, msn or tag me, i'll show u, privately.

Anyways, i shall reveal my new hairstyle (:

I. MUST. DEFEAT. YOU.

FUCK!

............FUCK!!

......................FUCK!!!

2009-10-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

Before i defeat you, i will have to defeat my greatest enemy, myself.

Like Pein, i shall let you have the taste of being in pain.

School reopens! 1st day of term... 3?

1st thing go school, kana caught, hairstyle, and hair colour 8D weeeeeeeeeeee~ and of course, ear stud -.- kns, now my lessons ends at 3pm everyday, except for friday, which ends at 12pm~ went to call centre to have lessons, 2nd period, by Mr Baey, yeah, took stupid pictures,

My Clique (:
Scandal!
Inside my office LOL!

Im your boss!

After CSO had lunch, then went for Mr Alvin Chan's lesson, briefed us about SVE, stress -.- after that around 2pm took bus, back to hougang, cut hair T__T bye long hair~

Emo-ing as im gonna cut hair ):

At the salon :o

And my new hairstyle? Stay tuned, will post tomorrow 8D

お前わ殺せ

2009-10-09T22:27:00.007+08:00

TO READERS: PLEASE TAG AFTER READING SO I DON'T GET THE FEELING OF TYPING FOR GHOSTS TO READ, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

Today, i did something hardcore *laughs*

Anyways, early in the morning, Andy Lau sms me ask me how to play I For You by Luna Sea, and i went to find the song and started practising, haha, and went Compass Point with aunt to buy stuff her house need, ate at her house, walked home, bought another packet unbearably, puffed away half of the packet -.- as i was at it, i can seriously see myself burning memories away, its kind of a emotional, and yeah, i took 1 and 1/2 hours to walk home :X feel like puking now D:

To Dumb: Im sad yes, but im happy you found happiness, my sadness lasts only for a while, your happiness will, hopefully, last forever! :D

Even though i still can't believe you're attached and im feeling sad, i still wish you happiness from the bottom of my heart (: Thanks for leaving an impression in my heart, im happy enough to know you, i apologize for my stupid attitudes, and thank you very much for bearing with my attitudes, no matter what, i hope we still can be friends (: I sincerely hope you last long with him, from the bottom of my heart.

Farewell, see you again, be well.
I'll never never forget
Farewell, we'll definitely meet again, right?
It's a promise, we'll link our little fingers as a sign

Thats the meaning of the Japanese words i sent you the other day, and yeah, if you still wanna learn how to play the guitar, im more than happy to teach you, stay nyappie! :D

Nice song by Luna Sea, I For You

Lyrics (Kanji):

ねぇ本当は誰もねぇ愛せないと言われて

怖がりのキミと出逢いやっとその意味に気づいた

傷つく為今二人出逢ったなら悲しすぎるよ

心からキミに伝えたい

きっとただ本当のキミの姿を求めて

まだ不器用に笑うねまだ悲しみが似合うから

キミと出逢う為だけにそう生まれたなら変えられるかな…

心からキミに伝えたい

傷つきすぎたけどまだ間に合うよ

心からキミを愛してる

キミに降る痛みを拭ってあげたいすべて I for You

心からキミに伝えたい

キミの笑顔いつも見つめられたら

心からキミを愛してる

キミに振る光を集めてあげたいすべて I for You

Translation:

Hey, the truth is that someone said, hey, that I can't love anyone
I finally realized the significance of meeting you, who is so nervous

If we met one another in order to get hurt, then this is just too sad

I want to tell you something from my heart...
I'm just looking for your true form

You still smile awkwardly, sadness still suits you

If I was born in order to meet you, then I wonder if I can change?...

I want to tell you something from my heart
I'm hurt a little bit too much, but I'll still be on time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe all of the pain away that falls on you, I for you

I want to tell you something from my heart
If only I can always look upon your smile

I love you from my heart
I want to gather up all of the light that falls on you, I for you

2009-10-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

The meaning of sadness, i'll never forget.

2009-10-09T01:08:00.003+08:00

Im sad, lost, dunno what to do now, really, i can't believe a person can just forget about another in just a blink of an eye, and feel nothing.

i guess, forgetting is mission impossible for me, cos i feel pain, in me.

忘记妳? 对不起, 我做不到 ):

2009-10-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

I hate it when i see people reading my blog and not tagging ): especially Jason Goh -.-

2009-10-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

伤心是在所难免的, 痛苦, 也只是短暂的, 只要把她给忘了, 我就是个开心的人.

Another day out with aunt, bought damn alot of things -.- bought one Levi Strauss Signature jeans, kinda nice, yeah, and walked home again, shiok, 2 days exercising hahaha, gotta sleep early today, tired -.-

Before I Decay
Please abandon instinct
I was stuck in a loop of a vicious circle
It was a mistake to have entrusted you
I die at abnormal speed

2009-10-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

the GazettE's new song, Before I Decay & Ayu kindly sent me this song 8D Enjoy~

2009-10-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

Should i be feeling sorry for you? Or should i be laughing my ass off? Idk, really.

Went out with aunt today, bought dog food (:

After that helped her carry the stuffs to her house, then i walked back to my house, stopped by the bread shop i used to go to, chatted with the aunty for like 2 hours plus, its been a long long time since i last saw her, haha, it was nice chatting with her, she treated me to a peanut butter waffle 8D shiok-ness, and while i was walking back, saw Amy, damn aunty sia this girl, LOL, and here i am.

さよなら.

2009-10-06T19:07:00.003+08:00

男人嘛, 要学会怎么拿的起, 就要学会怎么放下, 做什么都一样, 只要一拿起, 就要知道有一天一定要把他/她/它放下.

さよならまたね元気でいてね。
ずっとずっと忘れないから。
さよならきっとまた会えるよね？
約束だよ！ゆびきりげんまん。

Farewell, see you again, be well.
I'll never never forget
Farewell, we'll definitely meet again, right?
It's a promise, we'll link our little fingers as a sign

2009-10-05T02:43:00.001+08:00

Hello all readers, please do take note that i've changed my email address, so do add me up if you haven't added me, my new email address is kaikamiya@live.com thank you very much (:

2009-09-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

Webcammed with my dearest sister, she is in HongKong, kns, so good

Just in...

2009-09-29T19:40:00.003+08:00

Feeling damn vexed, again, i wanna be a bad guy for once, and put her down, cos i don't think she even gives a damn. I hate life the way it is, totally. FML.

This song suits my mood now, totally. Im totally pissed with everyone around me right now, feel like giving my mum a punch.

& yes, i am a fucking smoker! & im going to smoke until my lungs turn black tomorrow!

2009-09-29T14:05:00.002+08:00

dumbdumb, this is the 未成年Miseinen i've been talking about, super nice song ^^ & also one of the songs that made the GazettE famous!

today woke up at 10 plus, sneezing like a mad man -.-

nothing much to do today, maybe jam at night in my room, again, and pissing my dad off

at this rate, im gonna grow super fat -.- fuck. gotta go slim down, lose all my fats! :D

Ciaos!

i don't expect much anymore.

2009-09-28T21:39:00.002+08:00

Today, i woke up at... 5.30pm :D

Yesterday night, i was feeling damn sad, i don't know why D:

And then, dumbdumb called me (: talked for a while, she knows im moodless, and before she hanged up, she gave me a shock, by doing something :X she's soooooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeet, that lightened up my mood, i suppose, but i still cried myself to sleep, maybe i miss the kelong too much.

Im loving her, more and more each day, no matter what the outcome is, i will never regret my decision

Never ever looking back.

2009-09-27T23:15:00.003+08:00

Okay, im back here, in one piece, and for photos, visit my facebook, thanks :D saves the trouble for me to post here -.- after a relaxing trip, im back in the complicated life in Singapore -.- Man U won stoke city 2-0 1st goal assist by Sir Ryan Giggs (\m/!!) haha, drank at the kelong, felt so damn good and relaxed, like finally! hope to go there again soon! (:

This picture was taken BY ACCIDENT, nice right? LOL!

And fuck, i am so fucking fat, i must slim down !

Bendan Loves Dumbdumb ♥

2009-09-26T00:24:00.003+08:00

Jasmine, i have a confession to make, the secret i've always wanted to tell you is that, i like you D:
i know its a little bit too fast to say so now, maybe its a crush, maybe its not, but you remember the pictures i took at punggol beach? i can show u proof (: don't avoid me, alright?
I love you, Jasmine Yeo i'll be back, i guess...
♥DumbDumb, Bendan love you♥ (:

2009-09-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

I got the urge to post this, AGAIN, this song just makes me cry.. It describes my life lately D:

2009-09-24T20:41:00.001+08:00

Warning: Image Heavy!

Went to Punggol Beach to emo just now, let the pictures talk (:

2009-09-23T21:42:00.002+08:00

Today, imma blog about Sir Ryan Giggs, a living legend, indeed, he is 35 years old, but he plays like he's 25, here's a video about him, a living legend, gotta get his jersey!!

不知不觉中, 我已爱上了妳. 愛している,可愛いの少女

2009-09-23T02:04:00.003+08:00

Have been crying just now, i don't know why, the tears just flowed out, what's with me man...

Slept at 8pm, woke up at 1am, saw her sms, yeah, played my guitar, cried -.-

And now i just can't sleep D:

♥I love you. 愛している♥

2009-09-22T18:55:00.002+08:00

I wanna learn how to play this song, LOL looks kinda hard, yesterday night chatted with Jasmine on the phone all the way till 3.30am HAHA

woke up 10+ today -.- she more solid, woke up at 7+ o.o

anyways, i rotted at home today, damn bored -.-

and the stupid mcdonalds cannot take my order zzz, cannot order lor, eat maggie mee, AGAIN! zzz, gotta sleeep early today, i guess.

2009-09-21T22:45:00.001+08:00

Owen's dramatic goal! :D

P.s, for people dunno, Man Utd are those in red, and Owen is 7 :D

Anyone get me Owen's Jersey?

short sleeved

Long sleeved

Add in the shorts, it'll be perfect

2009-09-21T01:45:00.002+08:00

#7 Michael Owen's 96th Minute Miracle score!
And yes, today's highlight, muahaha, Michael Owen sealed off Manchester City's fate at the 6th minute of the injury time, bringing the final score to 4-3. Thats for today's highlights, above is reported by Kai Kamiya, for teh lulz!

Its definitely a miracle man, at the 95th minute, everyone thought that this'll be it, a draw game, but Owen, who came out on the 76th minute scored the finishing goal at the 96th minute, last minute of the game, perfect victory! Patrick & me were like shouting like hell when owen scored, he seriously hasn't lost his touch, my idol, indeed, the winning goal for Manchester United, FOOO!

2009-09-19T00:44:00.001+08:00

shit man, the more i look at Aoi, the more sexy i feel he is, shit, im turning gay

2009-09-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

I just found out, after smoking, a person's voice can go higher pitch, and sound more sexy, like Ruki 8D and today went aunt house, washed her car, now look damn shiny, damn shiok, haha, then went kovan, find keong and gang, went to play Para Para, lol, we all looked damn stupid, got videos, uploading to youtube, will upload here once i get it :D

2009-09-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

Actually i planned to sleep early today, after Amanda (not clementi ITE one) called me but i saw my guitar, my hand got itchy and...

This is me, im not lying ^^

2009-09-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

this bitch is fucking fucked up, she is 22, has 2 kids, babies, who are in their 6th month, and she can still fucking be online now, wake up super late the next day, and say she is fucking depressed and stressed over her 2 babies, and who is the one suffering? MY AUNT! FUCK, make my aunt xin ku nia, dowan take care baby, don't give birth la, so horny go and fuck for what? _l_

And still act one cute, BABY _l_ princess _l_ fuck off la damn erxin, cut one bangs, on her look like one kuku jiao face -.- and act one princess, where got princess scratch leg, dig nose, throw the residue everywhere one? KNN in front of my cousins and other relatives, only know how to talk, say will take care baby, FUCK! in the end is my aunt take care, KNNBPCB!!!!!

2009-09-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

Okay, i just figured out i've been wasting time on thinking about somethings, a person, to be exact, for the past few days, should concentrate more on my guitar instead of that person, a her, to be exact, as what Rinn said: what you feel is what you play, sadness? not anymore, i wanna play fierce music! ROAR!

P.s: Its Filth In The Beauty day again!

2009-09-16T17:08:00.002+08:00

Today is a fucking boring day -.- nothing to do the whole day, decided to not eat cos the sight of instant noodles makes me wanna puke x.x so i went to youtube, found this lame video, and yeah, kept me and rinn entertained for the whole afternoon, enjoy (:

my phone lately damn quiet sia -.-

2009-09-16T12:57:00.002+08:00

see the "葵" Aoi sticker at the bottom of my guitar? newly added :D actually supposed to be on my electric guitar one, but its too big to be put on it, looks strange, so i just squeeze everything to my acoustic HAHA, biased biased XD okay la, good news, i can play Distress & Coma liao :D so cool man, so high! and Filth In The Beauty, but FITB not so good yet x.x hahaha, updates more to come! よっるしく！

2009-09-15T19:27:00.002+08:00

I don't talk to people i hate (:

Today was a whole day of guitar practicing, love it man, got damn high, learnt how to slap the guitar like 俺様! :D played a few ガゼット's songs, yeah, gonna sleep early soon, and fuck i failed expanding my ear hole again, fucking painful now ]= nevermind, i hope and i guess i can sleep early today (:

i don't need you, you are not the only girl on earth, and im not gonna give in this time (:

2009-09-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

kns, call me lazy bum

anyways, im here blogging finally and Man Utd rocks, won tottenham 3-1 wahahahaha and today whole day rot at home, like, totally, rot. -.-

2009-09-13T12:26:00.016+08:00

That lazy bum dun want to update so here i am updatin for him. He went to buy his guitar strings for his sexy black guitar. Ton the night to watch soccer and fix his guitar. Sleep at 5am.
Thats all i know. I'm just bored. Okay, whatever.
Byebye,
Qian yu

2009-09-11T00:59:00.001+08:00

How i hope, i was the boy you loved.

2009-09-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

Now that no one knows my blog, im happy, typing all of this for myself to read, yes, myself.
Qian Yu, i really love you, but, you love him, i don't know what you think, that was why i did all of this.
Once again, i am sad, and some retards on facebook gave unwanted comments and pissed me off, yes, im fucking pissed.
I guess im gonna relieve some stress tonight and tomorrow night, playing guitar and smoking, the only stuffs that make me feel better.
and yes, im a bastard.

2009-09-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

愛している，カ？

2009-09-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

痩せた夢にもう一度を歌う
悲しみさえ自分だよと
答えてくれるなら
傷ついてもいい…

終わるはずの夢に

さよならが咲いてる

2009-09-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

im lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy

to update -.-

2009-09-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

Went Kbox for the past 2 days, fierce man~ -.- yeah and im kinda tired, BEV exam tomorrow, and i think nothing went into my head -.- even though i studied real hard, may God bless me tomorrow 8D tc all, fucking tired.

2009-09-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

Fuck man, seriously fucked up, fucking bitch, i go out every single time, she calls me every single time, asking "EH WHERE YOU AH?" in chinese, fucked up tone, and she claims that she calls me once in a blue moon, and with a nice attitude, -'- FUCK YOU! fuck man, dunno what i did in my past life to have such a fucked up family, "thanks God" for giving me such a "NICE" family, thanks uh! _l_

i just need to drink

fucking make myself drunk

2009-09-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Okayyyy, didn't went school today, and not gonna attend school tomorrow and friday, told mdm hasnah bout it, gotta start hitting the books, and imma be MIA from my home tomorrow onwards, till dunno when, so have fun man, and don't stop tagging!

2009-09-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

aww man, i so damn phail at piercing my lip D: even my qianyu have, i don't have D:
hope i can pull it through when i go school, Rinn-san, yorushiku! and im not going to school tomorrow \m/ i rock!
WOOOO!!!

ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
倩瑜, 愛している :P

2009-09-01T11:48:00.000+08:00

this morning, i tried doing something stupid & crazy, i tried piercing my lip, on my own, it was fucking painful and blood oozed out, of cos i took it out la, damn scary, those who said piercing lip is not painful -'-

2009-08-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

Just read up quite alot about lip piercings makes me think twice, its kinda scary man, zzz, but i want it badly D:
HOW??? Should i get it or give it up?
man... maybe i should find someone who knows how to pierce during the holidays :D

2009-08-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

OFA Test today, was kinda happy i know how to do most parts of the paper, except for the damned pivot table -.- 10 marks~ after test ate at school, then i went hougang mall, bought hollow pin, wanna pierce my lip, anyone wanna volunteer? :X i also scared myself :X jialat, rinn!! help me pierce! :X i also bought invisible stud in case =D hehe, nothing can stop me now :P hope my mum doesn't see it :D

thats about it for today luh, i wan go sleep liao -.- tired, nights~

a very touching song, go listen, ruki's voice is just... perfect

2009-08-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

枯詩　- ガゼット

词: ルキ

空虛だった心の詩意味など探せず
振り返れば　其処には何も殘ってなかった

時か経てば色褪せてく　花のような詩
響くはずも無い枯れた詩

過去を求めて　離れて行く
理解ってたはずなのに　何故　痛む
耳に殘るその音色はどれだけ胸に響いてくれてますか？

何も変れらないのに　あの頃よりも
前を向けてるのに　おかしいね
だんだん遠くなって　手が届かなくて
寂しいのは同じはずなのに
何を求めているの？　理解らなくなって

気付けばもう何処かへ　飛び立った後
無力な自分に気付き　振り返れば

其処には干乾びた俺がいた

どうしようもなく悲しい時に
零れる涙のような　偽る事の無い詩を
言葉にならい程嬉しい時に
笑顔のような　詩か歌えたら…

震えにまだ　酷く　続く
息を切らし　立さ止まれば
何も無かったあの時と同じ
冷たい毎日に帰りたくない

幼き頃から　夢見てた夢の中
一歩ずつ　また一歩ずつ
支え合って　笑い合って
泣いて　傷付いて

同じ色の夢を共に歩いて行こう
どうしようもなく辛い時に見せた
弱さを支えてくれた　信じる人へ
不器用な言葉でしか云えないけど
枯れた声が途切れるまで　此処に居たい

Kare Uta - the GazettE

Lyrics: Ruki

Unable to search for the meaning of my heart's empty song
When I turned around, there was nothing left
As time passes, the song fades like a flower
A withered song that doesn't echo

Longing for the past, we grow apart
I knew it would happen, so why does it hurt?
How much does the melody that lingers in my ears echo in my heart?

Nothing has changed since then
I'm facing forward, but it's strange
You're gradually growing so distant I can't reach
I thought we were both lonely
So what am I longing for? I don't know anymore
Before I realize it, you've flown off somewhere
I realize my powerlessness and turn around
And there was my dried-up self

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

The violent trembling still continues
If I hold my breath and stand still
It's like back when there was nothing
I don't want to go back to those cold days

Since I was small I dreamed in dreams
One step at a time
We supported each other, laughing together
We cried and got hurt
Let's walk together in the same-colored dream

When things were too hard to bear
The weakness you showed supported me; I have faith in you
And I can only say it with clumsy words, but
I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

Until my withered voice gives out...Unable to search for the meaning of my heart's empty song
When I turned around, there was nothing left
As time passes, the song fades like a flower
A withered song that doesn't echo

Longing for the past, we grow apart
I knew it would happen, so why does it hurt?
How much does the melody that lingers in my ears echo in my heart?

Nothing has changed since then
I'm facing forward, but it's strange
You're gradually growing so distant I can't reach
I thought we were both lonely
So what am I longing for? I don't know anymore
Before I realize it, you've flown off somewhere
I realize my powerlessness and turn around
And there was my dried-up self

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

The violent trembling still continues
If I hold my breath and stand still
It's like back when there was nothing
I don't want to go back to those cold days

Since I was small I dreamed in dreams
One step at a time
We supported each other, laughing together
We cried and got hurt
Let's walk together in the same-colored dream

When things were too hard to bear
The weakness you showed supported me; I have faith in you
And I can only say it with clumsy words, but
I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

Until my withered voice gives out...

2009-08-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

Part 1 before one of their major concerts, Decomposition Beauty !

Part 2! check out 5:23 to 5:33, the GazeCheer! damn awesome! haha

the GazettE rocks! and im gonna slim down!!! by hook or by crook! ROAR!

2009-08-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

8D
*is tempted*

2009-08-26T19:57:00.000+08:00

Today... Went school in the morning, forgotten what i did also -.- then went lunch, saw HER! yay~ damn happy after i saw her luh!
Even though was pissed off by someone who gave birth to 2 boys and not being responsible about them, hate this kind of people. Don't say this kind of person liao, pisses me off only.

Anyway, Alvin, Rachael, Andy, Rand & me ran off after lunch, all of us were like, mostly not feeling well, my eye hurts man, dammit.
Went Bugis, met aunt over there, and then went to pray, and went to Kallang Bahru there another temple, prayed, came hougang mall, aunt bought Bak Kua for this saturday, praying for the 7th month, saw andy(my secondary school one) haha, its been like, 8 months since i last saw him, we went hougang mall, with aunt, she bought 2 clip on fans for my 2 nephews, then i saw the Sony Mp3, i wanna buy man 8D then me & andy went kopitiam, treat him drink, then we talked about last time sec school stuffs, both of us agree that secondary school is better -.- then all of a sudden, we saw 2 Yuying boys, GuoLun and Milton! hahaha damn qiao, they ate dinner, then they went gym, andy went home, i came back home, changed, went to gym to look for them, wa, they damn fit sia -.- i damn weak, zzz 25Kg also cannot liao, zzz, must start to train up already 8D jiayou jiayou! For HER!!! and for myself!

Have i fallen in love with her? I sure do. (:

2009-08-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

Changed my blogskin, and i guess its time to update my blog, haha
Anyways, finished my first OFA assignment man, cool or what?
And i wanna buy Paipo! anyone know where to get? In Singapore, or how to import, pm me or tag!
in case you dunno whats paipo, heres the link

http://www.paipo.org.uk/

and... i finally found HER (: byebye~

2009-08-24T17:28:00.001+08:00

im fucking sick again -.- kthxbye

2009-08-17T20:58:00.005+08:00

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

I hate school. I hate MY home. I hate you. I hate him. I hate her. I hate it. I hate everything around me. FUCK IT LA!

Im already very tired from travelling from Hougang to Clementi to and fro everyday, can't i just have peace when i reach home? Please just shut your fucking mouth up la, you act as though you know me when you don't even know me. You don't even know how i feel. You treat me as though im a 13 year old kid, for fucking goodness sake, i have lived 17 fucking years! The furniture in my room is at least 20 years old! Can't i fucking change it? Friends who know me for lonng, you might wonder why you can't come my house to do any projects, cos my house looks like a fucking dumping ground, or a fucking garang guni's house, FUCK!

I seriously need someone that understands me, i really don't know who understands me, i doubt anyone does, when your parents don't even understand you, how do you fucking expect anyone else to understand you?

My parents,

They don't trust me

They don't understand me

They give me stress unknowingly and say that they aren't giving me stress

They use me, ALOT

They are selfish

They only think about themselves

My dad is a drunkard with a little mental problem and is a fucking miser, during my pri school years, i told him i was going for a movie, so i need some money, he gave me a fucking 5 dollars, what do you want me to do with it? eat mcdonalds and go home? _l_

My mum is a selfish woman who always think about herself, and treats me like a 13 year old, everytime i go out, she'll call, 1st thing, "where are you" 2nd, "why are you there" 3rd, "what time you wan come back?" 4th, "you better be home by *ridiculous timings* and she fucking thinks that i don't know my limits, keep asking me to go sleep, again and again, fucking irritating, thats why i don't talk much at home already, when they 2 are around, FUCK FUCK FUCK!

FUCK IT ALL!

The reverse side of beauty
It dyed by beloved filth.
(Sexual disgrace)
The reverse side of beauty
It dyed by beloved filth.

幻惑の海　沈んだ蛍
否定は欲求上の嘘か
矛盾で染まる体温
理性を被る愛撫に
踊り溶け込む春は不意に
汚らわしく …

My mind which falls

Your seed and my seed never mixes.
The connection of this blood is eternal.
You cannot finish suppressing the desire.
To true daughter... [Sexual disgrace]

吐息塞ぐ脈打つ｢飢え｣は
分かり合えぬ紅蓮を求む

Closest mind is distorted instability.
Please release me before breaking.
How long...
In humiliation
The countless fatal scar was born.

[Sexual disgrace]

Prohibited bud...
Reckless driving cucumber...
The kin'collapses...
Near relatives on death...
The smell of a cigarette smell breath ＆ shit
Moment that bitter white jam is mixed
Inside of a brain caused an error
and goes mad by the sweet bug

Your seed and my seed never mixes.
The connection of this blood is eternal.
You cannot finish suppressing the desire.
To true daughter...[Sexual disgrace]

首を這わす舌先と手
望む表情　紅蓮に染まれ

Closest mind is distorted instability.
Please release me before breaking.
How long...
In humiliation
The countless fatal scar was born.

Closet mind is distorted instability.
Please release me before breaking.
So long...
In humiliation
The final art is your dead face

Dad which fall to the trap

2009-08-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

Back blogging after a long day, yesterday i was kinda... emo, then i confided to Violet jiejie, kinda pissed her off though D: hope she forgives me, a little bit xiang tong already, maybe its just that im feeling stressed, hope so, hope i can have a breakthrough.

Today went to aunt hse, met ruo, brought the 2 dogs for a walk, exhausting -.- then went RJ's hse, played basketball, wa damn freaking tiring, no stamina liao -.- then ate, then watched soccer, Man U vs Burmingham kns, 1-0 nia, OWEN ALMOST SCORE!!!! NNBPCB! sadded, then watched 1st half Liverpool Vs Tottenham, now they still playing, live one, HAHA, KNN! patrick just sms me, Liverpool lose Tottenham! 2-1! D: sian... arghhh, today mood like not good, keep vulgarities, LOL! sorry uh~ and michael owen really lost his skills, maybe he too nervous today, still got chance to be better JIAYOU OWEN! I WILL SUPPORT YOU!

she is NOT my girlfriend, i can prove it.

BANG! HEADSHOT!

2009-08-13T20:53:00.001+08:00

A very tired day~
yawn throughout the whole day, too tired, and also nothing much happened today, yeah boring life~
Still miss her quite alot though...
alright then, i go sleep le, tc all~

piercings i wanna get
p.s: i forced in the 6th ear stick in my ear \m/ & I love Kamiya family together with Violet Kamiya 8D

2009-08-12T20:27:00.002+08:00

2nd day without you.

trying to not to think of you too much.

Today school is damn freaking bored, im like fucking tired, run too much ytd =.= yeah, shall skip school stuff, went Queensway after school, wa got damn alot of thing caught my eye i wan buy~ cny cny~ im damn tired la, lazy to post also, dollie say my posts too short, LOL!

edit: today is Filth In The Beauty day, i dunno why, damn addicted to the song today LOL!

the internet connection sucks now -'- nabehz!

2009-08-11T21:50:00.001+08:00

1st day without you.

Took the bus in the morning felt... sad, almost cried. But, i was the one who wanna let her go, so, i shouldn't have any complains. Reached school, my friends were all there for me, i was damn touched, like, seriously, so i would like to take this chance to thank,
1) Alvin Ong!
2) Andy Tan!
3) Rachael, ah min, :X
4) Rand
5) Aaron
6) Master Farhan
&
of cos, GUIGUI!
Yeah, love them deep deep xoxo~
and, i've decided, to go for the NYAA Blaze camp, treat it as a 6 consecutive events to numb myself (:

26 & 27 Sept - Kelong
28, 29, 30 Sept & 1 Oct - NYAA Camp :D

Im constantly trying to make myself not think of it, but... zzz, time shall heal.

Life is pain, pleasure is death.

2009-08-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

Amy, if you're reading this, i want you to know, iloveyou, and i will be waiting for your return, (:

2009-08-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

One year ago, around this time, i fell, into my lowest point of my life, today, i fell, once again, to my lowest point of life, i feel like dying, i really just wanna, die, if i could talk to god, or anyone who is controlling my life, you now have 2 choices,
1) Let me die!
2) Make my life a better one.
at this point of time, i have support, no one to help me, i don't know whether i can stand up to face life again, this time, i might just fall, and never ever stand up again.
How i hope Sochii is my real brother, Violet and Toya are my real sisters...
Life sucks, because i lead a fucked up life.
Life is pain, pleasure is death.

2009-08-09T14:02:00.001+08:00

Life is pain, pleasure is death.
-Miyavi

Girl, i want to tell you, i love you and i miss you, but, i know, you still love him and you still miss him.

Calm envy
降りしきる雨の音に　　沈みそうな
その約束は誰の夢で　誰の為の夢だろう

「I want to see all of you.」「I want to love all of you.」
どうかしてるね

繋ぐ手と逆のてには　いつも知らない香りがしてる
「I want to see all of you.」「I want to love all of you.」
息はちゃんと出来てるのに　崩れそうになる

言葉よりも深く　愛してくれるなら
目の前に居るあなただけを　信じていける
不意に見せた過去に　触れる度に脆く
埋め尽くせない空白に　涙浮かべ

安らぎに甘えてても隣のあなたが私の中から途切れそうになる

「I want to see all of you.」「I want to love all of you.」
答えは笑みに溺れ
「You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost.」
掻き消せない程　抱えてる

あなたに投げた言葉も　愛してくれるなら
目の前に居るあなただけを　信じていける
不意に見せた過去に　触れる度に痛む　いたむ
私のいない空白まで　愛したい
気付かれないように　涙は拭うから
この以上私の前で　笑わないで

「さよなら」を隠す二人じゃなく
「さよなら」に泣く二人でいたい
思い返すより忘れて欲しい
そして私を空白に置いて
もう過ぎた日々を追ったりしないで

もうこれ以上置いて行かないで
「せめて・・・」
さよならを握り眠る私の
仄かな熱を煙草のように消して

帰らない日々を　愛した人よ

I seem to sink into the sound of the falling rain.
This promise is whose dream, who is this dream for?

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
It's this way, isn't it?

When our hands are clutched together,
There is this unknown scent coming from the opposite one.
Although I can breathe normally, I seem to crumble eventually.
If you could love me deeper than just those words
I could believe only you standing before me.
In the suddenly showing past, the times we would touch,
Could not fill the fragile emptiness, floating on those tears.

Although I find comfort in this peace,
You, who are beside me, are breaking from my inside.

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
The answer is drowning in a smile.
You don't love the everyday shadow, when it was lost.
We carry those bounds that I can't let disappear.

Even though I threw those words at you, if you could love me
I could believe only you, standing before me.
The suddenly shown past, hurts every time you touch me
I want to love you to my inner emptiness.
Because I won't let you notice how I wipe my tears
There is nothing else to laugh about in front of me.

It's not the two of us, concealing this means the [good bye]
How I wish it to be us together crying at this [farewell]
More than thinking back about it, I would like you to forget
And put me in this empty space.
Don't chase those long passed days.

Don't leave anything more than what's already left.
[At least…]
I hold onto this good bye, as I fall asleep
And the faint heat vanishes like tobacco.

The days that won't return, the person I loved

2009-08-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

Changed blogsong, to Neo Visualism by Miyavi
Abit moodless, dunno why uh ):
imissyouamytan

2009-08-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

Just to share, another video that moved me to tears, Meikyou Shisui by Due Le Quartz (Miyavi's ex band)

2009-08-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

Back blogging, went Queensway after school, Amy was supposed to meet us, but her brother got something on, so didn't meet, didn't meet her in the end D:

Yeah, and got some things to say here, hmm, the feeling is strange, it doesn't feel right, but as you said, one month's time, we shall see are we suited for each other (:

Ruki, Miyavi & Shou

2009-08-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

im damn tired ;A; i love amy, bye~~ :X

2009-08-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Alright, im back blogging :D went to bedok in the afternoon with aunt, mum and a relative, while waiting for my relative at bedok interchange, saw Diananana LOL, so long no see her, she changed so much, couldn't recognize her, lol, then after that went bedok north ave 2 and they ate vegetarian while i ate Botak Jones! :>

Went aunt's hse after that, saw my precious dogs and my precious nephews :> they're sooooooo damn cute luh!! haha, after that slacked all the way there, ate dinner, annd watched a movie @ the movie channel there, called =2002= damn nice, a chinese show, by nicholas tse, its damn nice :D

p.s: im in a relationship now :P x3

2009-07-31T20:56:00.001+08:00

Today was kinda bored, go school do CPA, so stressed, after school went to eat at KFC with Abdullah, Andy, Aaron, Farhan & Fajar, haha ate quite alot :X *guilty* after that jiu came back home rest :D anyways, Abdullah passed my my [DIM] album *iz happy* but was pissed by something else, oh well~ thats life~ here is the album art and track list.

The Gazette ガゼット - DIM

「剥離」 Hakuri - 1:43
THE INVISIBLE WALL - 4:35
A MOTH UNDER THE SKIN - 2:57
LEECH - 4:15
泣ヶ原 Nakigahara - 7:19
「エリカ」 Erika - 0:53
HEADACHE MAN - 3:54
紅蓮 Guren - 5:40
「子宮」 Shikyuu - 0:43
13STAIRS[-]1 - 5:02
DISTRESS AND COMA - 5:20
「感触」 Kanshoku - 0:52
白き優鬱 Shiroki Yuutsu - 4:29
IN THE MIDDLE OF CHAOS - 3:02
「朦朧」 Mourou - 0:23
OGRE - 3:14
DIM SCENE - 5:12

2009-07-31T16:22:00.002+08:00

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping
it all over his lap.

When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him
by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to
football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by
jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to
the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch
certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.

When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion.
You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.

When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him
by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm
so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deeply he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him . You
thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on your heart.

"Treasure everything you have, don't act like a spoilt child, you're not a young kid anymore, act like an adult, because you are one year away from becoming one" - my cousin said that to me

2009-07-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

Feel, the power of the GazettE
and why im so obsessed with them
My aim, to be like them.

2009-07-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

Today, 25th July 2009 i got my very first electric guitar from Davis Guitar @ peninsula plaza :D pics? wait wait wait, will upload... soon

2009-07-23T08:47:00.003+08:00

I dragged myself to school today, and im at school blogging now, with metal band's bass in my head, people who have headaches should know what i mean, i guess after lunch im going home, no matter whoever believes me or not.

2009-07-21T19:30:00.002+08:00

wahahaha, im sick, as promised, not faking it, but really sick (: and 2 days off school just like that! but im really having a bad headache, comes and goes, sore throat, cough and flu, tingting lagi best, fever, 1 week "holiday" LOL! anyways, tomorrow can enjoy solar eclipse muahahahaha, and its a day closer to my dream, yay 8D shiok shiok, but i feel like puking =.= sian, thurs and fri must go back face the teachers again zzzzzzzzzzzz, btw, now i understand why the public says ITE stands for "Its The End" its not the students, its some other factors :X obvious right? i dowanna continue, later Mr Loh see liao go spread, i die, LOL!

2009-07-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

Okay, the stop school mindset is coming into my brain again, i feel like stopping school, again, i thought after leaving secondary school, everything will be new, but in thee end, its still the ssame, school life still sucks, not because of friends, so friends, don't worry, but its just me, my laziness is making me don't feel like going to school, making me hate school, the teachers, not you Mr Loh, some other teacher(s), their voice, their decisions, their amount of stress, their irresponsbility, pisses me off, i don't care if that teacher sees this or what, i don't give a damn, that teacher is actually a nice person, but when it comes to studies, it seems like his/her subject is the most important thing on earth, no matter if you are not feeling well or what, which reminds me, teachers, whats the point of asking a student questions when you don't even trust the student? For example, i tell a teacher im not feeling well, the teacher asks "sure anot?" with the suspicious look, you might as well just don't ask, and ignore the poor student, right? Seriously, i can't keep up with this kind of life, the pace is too... damned.

I really thought before, of becoming a monk for a couple of years or so, this kind of life is seriously too complicated for me, too damned, as i said. I have not even touched my projects, too lazy to do so, im not the kind that'll do office stuff, im more of a hands-on guy, and im not even sure am i even regretting taking up this course, should've went to NS while re-taking O's, which'll save loads of time, instead of wasting time in this school im starting to hate, no offence to anyone in this school, but really, this school is starting to piss me off, maybe i should get sick soon, real soon, like, tomorrow?

And blogger finally decides to stop being a bastard, thanks. My dream above, coming true soon.

2009-07-14T20:25:00.001+08:00

im fucking tired, i guess im gonna go sleep soon, btw, QA has a suspected H1N1 case, and farhan has fever of 39 degrees for 3 days and is not recovering, and alvin has a fever of 38 degrees and im feeling feverish, nnbpcb, scary

2009-07-13T21:08:00.002+08:00

Going to sleep soon, so i'll just do a short post, im getting sick of life, i hate it, i hate my home, nobody knows how worse the condition is here, it just sucks, makes me feel sick and pisses me off, how i hope i have an electric guitar right now, but before that, return sochii korkor money >< 200 dollars ah dey!

2009-07-09T20:06:00.002+08:00

Back blogging (: today left school early, for my contract signing, felt good, cos i didn't wanted to stay at school any longer also, abit pissed, but lucky not more pissed, yeah, signed the contract at hougang mall, went hougang point with aunt, bought a professional yoyo, i lost mine previously, sian, bought a new one, shiok, damn fun, been quite a while already, damn fun, nothing much to blog alr, tomorrow's hairul's birthday! haha, he's a nice guy actually, going peninsula with him and abdullah after their friday prayers tomorrow, yay~ peninsula~ might be buying a bag :X spend money again *smacks self* k la i wanna go sleep liao, enjoy this wonderful video of Dir en grey live :D

2009-07-08T19:39:00.002+08:00

Glass Skin - Dir En Grey

It comes and slowly stains my heart

That's been cold, all alone and so tightly closed

The sins are scattered everywhere

They're around me

I can't see it

It vainly comes just crashing down

In this sad and forgotten little town

The truth we tend to look away from lies down deep

I open out my wings of glass

Up and towards the wind melted future

So just please don't go

Please don't go

Be close to you

I lay my head on top of the heavy and closed out door and I pray

The lonely future left for me is one of meaning of just living

It comes and slowly stains my heart

That's been cold, all alone and so tightly closed

The sins are scattered everywhere

They're around me

I can't see it

It vainly comes just crashing down

In this sad and forgotten little town

The truth we tend to look away from lies down deep

I open out my wings of glass

Up and towards the wind melted future

So just please don't go

Please don't go

Wanna be close to you

I am now forgetting even the colours of your tears and love

So just please don't go

Please don't go

Holding on strong to what lies ahead

I bleed as my way of compensating everything to you

How heavy is blood?

Happiness and Sadness lies too close

The hand of the child born tomorrow will be just pure and nothing else

I can barely see you with all these tears

I open out my wings of glass

Up and towards the wind melted future

So just please don't go

Please don't go

Wanna be close to you

I am now forgetting even the colors of your tears and love

So just please don't go

Please don't go

Holding on strong to what lies ahead

The bell of reality rings out loudly from down deep within

And disappears with all the wind

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Today, i really really feel unlike myself, i just feel i can't stay in my clique any longer, to all who are in my clique, its not you guys, its just, me, i just, don't feel good with some of you guys around, i just don't feel right, i don't want to type it out here, cos its disrespectful, if any one of you wanna know, feel free to ask me, and yeah, i know my attitude is not good, but NOBODY's attitude is perfectly good, i have nothing to say, seriously. Bottom line, i suppose:

i'll leave.

It might be a bad choice now, but im sure it'll do you guys good in the long run, without an irritating idiot around (: i had great memories with you guys, seriously. (:

2009-07-07T21:54:00.003+08:00

2nd day of school! (1st day for me) bored -.- tired -.- jialat man~ my mind is full of the kelong pictures, my fishing rod, the fishing boat, you me i they we, WALAO EH!!!! 81 more days!!!!! and today played guitar again, until my skin all tearing, woo~ hardcore~! my aim: Jrocker! muahahahaha btw, today i thought of how my future will be, haha damn funny

17-19: ITE

19-21: Poly

21-23: NS

23-30: Find a stable job with stable income, earn my 1st 500K(or 1M), get married at age 27, have 2 kids, a girl and a boy, at 29, and own a BMW at age 30! so far la, thats what i thought, but my dream is to be a guitarist! or vocalist! haha, hope i can find a band soon! :D

girl, i still have feelings for you, i really do, you have never left my heart since that day, o1o1o9, 00.00am

2009-07-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

Details for the next trip.

READ EVERYTHING CAREFULLY.

As most of you guys wasn't able to go for the 1st kelong trip due to H1N1, here is a 2nd chance for those who missed out the 1st one, this time, you guys have 3 months to get ready your money, persuade your parents to allow you to go, and many other stuff, for this time. There might not be teachers going, but there'll be adults, like my parents, going, so you guys can tell your parents that if they do not allow you to go if there's no teachers going. To confirm your name, i will need you to pass me Deposit (RM100), transport fee (tbc) and snorkeling(RM40 if you are going), then your name will be confirmed.

And the only way to get back your money?
Ans: Go for the trip!

There will be NO REFUND after you have confirmed your name (and money) with us*. The expenses for the kelong are as follows:

Kelong accommodation - RM 155

Transport:

RM700 for 10pax = RM70/pax

RM750 for 12pax = RM63/pax

RM1800 & SGD 180 for 30pax = RM60 & SGD6/pax

RM1700 & SGD 180 for 40pax = RM43 & SGD6/pax

Boat Ticket - RM 4

Fishing tools - RM 25

Snorkeling - RM 40

Spaces are open from now onwards, feel free to inform, with the activity you would like to take part in/inquire me, Kai for any details for this trip.
You can get to me @ 92290262 please also, at the same time identify yourself.
You can also inform Aida, Abdullah or Ghufran if you're interested for the trip.

For snorkeling, inform Ghufran. For those who do not know Ghufran, feel free to look for me.
The slots will be closed TWO WEEKS before the trip, 12th September. Note:

This trip is open to ANYONE, which means you can invite anyone you desire.

The date will not be changed for anyone. Which means the date is fixed.

*Refers to Ghufran, Aida, Abdullah and Me.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=90667&id=644698778<- pics from 1st trip.